Over Christmas I get two weeks of in work I was taking coke when I drank even some Xmas eve noting crazy though like 3.5 would last me 3/4 Xmas nights out now most were casual with family or friends. I think issue started when I got coke for a rave, I tried usually crush it up so it’s easier to sniff when not at home like a nightclub and I tried abit next thing whole 3.5 is gone, I got into habit of getting some if was going out on Saturday, id get it on Thursday cause I get train to city and go out there all weekend, but I say not this time ill just try a little shower bed but I take it all in the end every time. But I used to get it Thursday and have control id not even think about sniffing it all usually a like when I get bag and keep it for night out. Why is this? Now I started randomly getting it on Thursday saying I’ll take abit even though I know I’m not going out that weekend but I take it all then and there. I don’t think it’s rehab bad but it does show lack of control and addictive personality. I dunno if it’s a routine im in as I will Thursday go get coke take some do a big girl everything shower and continue taking it before I go see my girlfriend the Friday for weekend.
What worst is I’ve work Fridays and I’ve done it a few times work no sleep and come down and have survived