u/Acceptable-haircut

I'm looking for any tea recipes or anything that you liked adding to your tea. I'm new to tea drinking and while I'm familiar with chai, I would like to explore between different drinks due to my health issues. And avoid caffeine as well. If you know any brands that are caffeine free teas, please let me know.(tea bags only as I'm having difficulty with measuring and mixing with loose tea)

Please let me know your suggestions and I'm open with any kind of tea. Thank you in advanced

I'm tired of telling people of what happened and not believing a single word I said. I have no one else to talk about this besides my friends who was there and knew what she was doing to me. The school, my classmates, my teachers, and my family even our neighbors thought that I was insane, crazy, a liar, all because it's impossible, and it wasn't true.

Everything start when I was in gr 9 where this girl came up to me and introduced herself as a former classmate of mine back in gr 7, At first it was normal, she and my friends got along and everything was okay until she started copying my friends and started cringing to me uncomfortably. She tried to do the same things with my friends but stopped when they confronted her but continued the same thing with me even after telling her how uncomfortable she was with me. At first she was companing me everywhere i go, even with the times where it was not needed, up to the point where she doesn't want me to leave her side no matter how short it was. One time she had me spinning quite fast around the hallway whilr tightly holding my arm to the point it was red and going numb and while i was busy trying to get her off me we bump into a different classmates of ours in a different class where she pretended we were just having fun and laughing at my misery because of what she did(she came to class early the next day dramatically telling people that I hurt her and shown a small wound claiming that i was at fault and had me hold her wrist for the whole day everywhere).

Unfortunately the next year gr10, I was given the same classes with her except all my friends are place into a different class, leaving me with just her due to my advisor refusing to let anyone to switch to a different class. As you guess, it got worse. All my classmates turned against me, refusing to let me join them, purposely leaving me to be her partner in every group activities, started talking about me behind my back, leaving me with their school work, and generally a group of shitty people who doesn't deserved any achievement they got from cheating. And oh.. She too got worse. From being a burden to every partner/grouo activity, she also got me in trouble with every teacher we had. One time, She had in me punished into cleaning our whole classroom and hall way for 2 weeks because rumors had it that she told our advisor that I left the room unclean despite it was deeply raining and broke our room's cleaning mop. And much more incidents that made my year a living hell. And also had this big crush on a former classmate of mine, and became obsessed of him and hated that i was talking to him who was at that time my seatmate (please check my older posts to know more of what she has done. "The aftermath of my trauma")

Along side of that was my health falling apart as well. And family not believing that I was in pain and couldn't bring myself to get up and leave my bed.(also check my older post about this" how to deal with the aftermath" )

My family convinced that i was being bullied and later learning about her and is now convinced that i was in a relationship with him and she got jealousy and got with him and i was too heartbroken to go to school. Which all of what is said is not true and did not happened at all. Because i was in pain and dying at that point and no one believed me.

Fun right?? Much more happened with my family and even now none of them believed me.

I'm sorry if my grammar is wrong and im just rushing to let go of thoughts into writing this and I really don't have any idea on what to do.

I did everything I could think of, to let go but I still feel the weight of my trauma. Please tell me what could i do to help me find peace?

Exactly my current situation. I know that calling her as a abuser doesn't quite make sense of what she did but referring to her as an enabler means I have to try to understand her perspective again.

I don't think it's any life-threatening or serious, just a common cold. But I don't understand why would she need to keep asking for me to help her even when there's another people here in the house, why do she keep telling people to come get me.

Please don't get anything wrong but why can't i stop feeling irritated? Everything that happened in the past is not even related as of now.

I know it's triggering my own trauma of her, but why can't anyone understand that?

Honesty this isn't the first time it happened. I know it's strange but it's just a stupid thing that I'm complaining about this when I know It's not something I should be doing anymore.

Well.. Maybe I should be glad that someone cared enough to notice something, I mean who mentions that if it's not important, however was it really worth lying about when they brought me into the clinic despite not believing me, that I was in pain.

It's ridiculous how the very thing they lied about is what I'm suffering as of now.

Maybe I did it to escape you, with that none stop pestering maybe I could actually talked not that it will change anything. I thought I was being cruel then, maybe you were helping, and I was too stubborn to believe that I was faking this whole thing. Was I? That maybe everytime you saw me leave my room and having everyone telling me that I should be honest with you, and those time where you came up to me when I'm alone.

Well you got what you wanted. I can't stand being with anyone no matter how short that interaction was, I can't even bear being in the same room as family even if it's just me with any family member, I feel trapped in this place, I can't even leave this place, I want to leave even this just a small amount of time alone but i can't even do that.

Tell me, Was it because of you or my family that did this? Or maybe it's both who did it subconsciously.

Why am I stuck? It's been too long, it's more that enough time to move on from this.

My family had me hang out with my friends a few days ago, I don't regret it, were you trying to see if I was envying my friends living their lives without me? Or maybe this will motivate me to forget everything.

I mean wouldn't it just be just better if I get to forgot everything that happened between my family and her? Even if it means that I'm alive.

Not this lazy adult(Who knew you were going to be right? That someone like me should be old enough to be an adult) laying on their bed all day rotting.

That's life isn't it? Trauma after trauma even if i didn't do anything.