This decision might break apart my family. I have no idea what to do
So for context I’ve just finished my first year of college and honestly I fucked it all up. I finished my first sem with pretty bad results and my dad told me that if I fuck up next sem then he’s not going to pay for it anymore. I tried to stay on top of my things for a couple weeks but I fucked up again and get pretty bad results the second sem and I’ve lost my dad’s financial help.
Thankfully though my dad said that he’s going to still try and help turn myself around and he’ll give me support but he won’t be paying for anything anymore. But my grandparents still want to see me continue my education next year during the fall.
So I have two options right now either listen to my dad, which means that I’m either going to start working to afford college or enlist in the military so they can pay for me. Or I accept my grandparents’ offer and they take over paying for college.
I realize now that I fucked up and that my main issue right now is having discipline and having the self control to focus on the right things. But I’m honestly not sure if I can be the person I want to be when the next sem starts. So I’m going to take this summer to try and become that person.
I so badly want to continue studying next year and my grandparents’ offer is really looking good, but I know if I take it then my dad will stop supporting me and stop interacting with my grandparents.
So what do I do?
TLDR: fucked up first sem of college, dad not paying anymore but is still willing to help me by saying that I should go military or start working to pay my own fees, grandparents are willing to pay for college, but by doing so will lose my relationship with my dad