Yea as the title says, OP cant move on and always think about her
She sometimes acts so close and sometimes acts so distant that I really dont know what she wants in me to be honest
She never loved/liked me the way I loved/like prolly it was one sided and ik its my mistake
but at 1st it was her who showed interest came close and left and started acting close
I was thrashed and helpless still she used to stay with me I thought maybe one day she woud be mine but no lol i was fucking wrong
tried various ways to stay away from contact but she still used to stay with me she said she cant stay without me and all but she dont love me either
sometimes she acts so cold distant and ghosts me it hurts me a lot
I was too dumb to understand this and ik it was my mistake
I loved her yes I loved her a lot a lot, maybe still I love her a lot but I think its the time to move forward in life and i have to move on
ill turn 18 next month and prolly within 2 3 months ill go to college too this year
maybe when ill go there ill forget her eventually because there will be new people new environment
but these days, her thoughts are eating me up totally and i cant focus on upcoming college entrances and all
ill be thankful for any sort of help.