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Need Help, nonstop anxiety for 7+ days

I have Trigeminal neuralgia, which causes pain 24/7 for me for about four years now straight. Not one day without pain in four years, which is relevant to current situation.

I got in an argument with a loved one and stressed out causing my pain to skyrocket to 9/10. Being in high pain causes my anxiety “walls” to come crashing down, and being anxious causes the pain to increase. Long story short, a vicious self feeding cycle.

I’m trying my best. Music. Grounding. Nature. Breathing. It’s not working. I ended up in the ER on Monday, they gave me Ativan which made me just feel super sleepy but still was anxious. Like, I wanted to cry and sob but felt like I was trapped in my body. To me it felt like Ativan was a drug to make me tolerable to others while still being in hell myself.

I’ve tried Xanax, Klonopin, Valium… they don’t work on me. Pain meds don’t work on me. I suspect I have the “red hair gene”, because pain meds, anesthesia, and psych meds wear off so very quickly on me. The Ativan, for example, wore off before I even left the ER a couple hours total later.

I have an appointment with psychiatrist tomorrow. Therapy Friday, I hope (therapist hasn’t confirmed), more therapy Saturday (confirmed). But I’m struggling to make it through the week.

Today my dog had a seizure. I managed it well but now I’m limping through the house barely able to function. My chest feels super weak and I’m sure that’s the result of nonstop adrenaline. Doctor at emergency room confirmed I’m tachycardic but that my heart is still strong. They didn’t give me any meds to take home, just told me to contact my psychiatrist which I did immediately and for the soonest appointment.

My mom came over yesterday. I’m 38 years old and I cried for over an hour as she held my hand. I’m so tired but the anxiety just won’t stop, and the pain is so exhausting as well.

I’ve had severe anxiety all my life. Heck, I wrote a series of children’s books about it before getting this chronic illness. But here I am unable to calm myself down. I feel like I’m burning out everyone around me.

Does anyone have any advice. I get dizzy and feel like passing out just going down the driveway from being so exhausted. I have some sleeping medication, trazodone I think it’s spelled, and I took some last night and felt drowsy for half an hour and then it wore off. Truly truly feel like I’m in hell. I wish someone would just hold me and protect me from my own mind.

Currently laying in bed as I type this. I keep shivering as if I’m freezing despite being under three blankets, my chest feels weak, and I’m exhausted but I don’t feel like I have anyone to turn to and I can’t sleep.

I have Trigeminal neuralgia, which causes pain 24/7 for me for about four years now straight. Not one day without pain in four years, which is relevant to current situation.

I got in an argument with a loved one and stressed out causing my pain to skyrocket to 9/10. Being in high pain causes my anxiety “walls” to come crashing down, and being anxious causes the pain to increase. Long story short, a vicious self feeding cycle.

I’m trying my best. Music. Grounding. Nature. Breathing. It’s not working. I ended up in the ER on Monday, they gave me Ativan which made me just feel super sleepy but still was anxious. Like, I wanted to cry and sob but felt like I was trapped in my body. To me it felt like Ativan was a drug to make me tolerable to others while still being in hell myself.

I’ve tried Xanax, Klonopin, Valium… they don’t work on me. Pain meds don’t work on me. I suspect I have the “red hair gene”, because pain meds, anesthesia, and psych meds wear off so very quickly on me. The Ativan, for example, wore off before I even left the ER a couple hours total later.

I have an appointment with psychiatrist tomorrow. Therapy Friday, I hope (therapist hasn’t confirmed), more therapy Saturday (confirmed). But I’m struggling to make it through the week.

Today my dog had a seizure. I managed it well but now I’m limping through the house barely able to function. My chest feels super weak and I’m sure that’s the result of nonstop adrenaline. Doctor at emergency room confirmed I’m tachycardic but that my heart is still strong. They didn’t give me any meds to take home, just told me to contact my psychiatrist which I did immediately and for the soonest appointment.

My mom came over yesterday. I’m 38 years old and I cried for over an hour as she held my hand. I’m so tired but the anxiety just won’t stop, and the pain is so exhausting as well.

I’ve had severe anxiety all my life. Heck, I wrote a series of children’s books about it before getting this chronic illness. But here I am unable to calm myself down. I feel like I’m burning out everyone around me.

Does anyone have any advice. I get dizzy and feel like passing out just going down the driveway from being so exhausted. I have some sleeping medication, trazodone I think it’s spelled, and I took some last night and felt drowsy for half an hour and then it wore off. Truly truly feel like I’m in hell. I wish someone would just hold me and protect me from my own mind.

Currently laying in bed as I type this. I keep shivering as if I’m freezing despite being under three blankets, my chest feels weak, and I’m exhausted but I don’t feel like I have anyone to turn to and I can’t sleep.