u/Academic-Succotash64

I was introduced to cocaine when I turned 20 years old by a person who I no longer consider my friend. I was hooked on it almsot every other weekend or every weekend from what I can remember. My nose would clog up and eventually clear with time.... I remember smelling the chemicals in the cocaine, and that's when I figured to have another session of use, as in my mind, this signified my nose was clear. I started noticing it took more time and effort (nose blowing, rinses, etc.) to clear my nose until eventually it just wouldn't clear, and I started having sinus pressure from the amount of mucus and blockage I had in my nose. To add fuel to the fire, I smoked 5 plus times a week, so I woke up with severe congestion. With all this, I ignored it and was in denial as I knew coke heads who never had any issues, or so they told me. I started to worry as the pressure was so immense that I felt like my head was going to blow up. Eventually, I got a CT scan and sure enough, I had Polyps, Derbis, mucus, deviated septum. It took a couple of months, but I eventually got ESS (Endoscopic Sinus Surgery), and it was a rough recovery because of the amount of tissue and mass they removed from my sinus. I remember post-healing, I still had pressure, which made me enter a dark place in my mind and caused depression as I expected to feel normal again. Ultimately, I made a grave mistake and relapsed multiple times on cocaine. I have recently gone in for a CT scan, and they showed a super-enlarged right turbinate and an enlarged left turbinate. I also have eustachian tube dysfunction as I cannot pop my ears or equalize pressure. I'm so afraid of ENS and the amount of trauma I have put on my sinus. I regret my decisions completely as I now have a family and want to move forward with my life.