( TW : Depression, Overthinking)
I apologise if this seems incoherent, writing this as I experience it with a lack of sleep. and I’m even unsure if i’m formatting this correctly I apologise.
It just feels alienated to feel like this,
I’m only 19, and it just feels like my life is over for apart of the month.
it just feels like with every cycle it just gets worse. and I’m just gaining more symptoms each time.
I find it hard to comprehend it when it starts. that’s when i realise it is PMDD. and when I try and understand what’s going on with me. it’s an endless thoughts of second guessing myself.
and then getting too psyched out a overthinking spiral I like to call it.
and it’s just the fact, your memory decides to just check out afterwards so I can’t even remember what it was like. It just feels like, you’re on an another planet for a couple of days.
and then the brain fog, that’s the worst part for this cycle. I’ve had a history with dissociation and derealation in the past, so it’s hard to deal with.
I just appreciate you taking the time to read, and I’m wondering if anyone else can understand what I mean?