u/Able-Salt-2802

Hi everyone 👋🏻 I recently got by first hydrangeas they’re blue twilight dreams. I’m new to all of this and I wanted to ask for some tips and any hacks.

I am in a flood zone, however, my yard never becomes water logged or flooded bc of our pecan trees and culverts. The ground retains moisture well so I’m not sure I’ll need peat moss. I also live in west TN and my house gets plenty of both morning sun and afternoon shade.

I’m unsure how I should make up the soil for planting more specifically. I’m very excited bc I loved these flowers since I was little and always wanted them. Thank you so much in advance 💗💗

Back in November I was hit by a car while riding my bike home from work. The driver did not try to break and I was t-boned. Both of my femurs were snapped on impact and one was sticking out on my impact side. I was thrown by the car and ended up behind the vehicle completely flipped around. The street was lit, I had reflectors, and I stopped at my stop sign. The only problem was the police officer took my statement when I was unable to medically consent for myself and they never followed up with me. They closed the case before I even had surgery the next morning. Keep in mind I was just in an accident, snapped both femurs, and I’m laying on asphalt on 30 degree weather. At the time someone there had my father on the phone and I was just screaming in pain and couldn’t even speak to him.

I was life-lined an hour and half away to the nearest trauma
Hospital. During everything they couldn’t not give me any relief. They gave me fentanyl, ketamine, etc and no matter nothing worked. I was completely aware and alert and trapped in my own agony. All I could do is scream because I could feel my bones over lapping. To this day I can see the headlights, feel the asphalt, and the phantom pain.

They put 13in rods inside my femurs and bolted them in which came out to 9 sutures. I had acute blood loss and ending with two blood transfusions. and I was in the hospital for 3 weeks. 2 weeks of that time was in physical rehab where I learned to walk again. I was told I’d be better by February and sent home.

I was fired from my job- my husband and I have been
-$800 every month and we’re struggling everyday. Yet I don’t qualify for any state assistance. The kicker is we had just bought our first house two months before this. Back to the topic.

Last Tuesday I had to have emergency surgery because I had broken the rod in my right leg two months ago… and had been walking on it ever since. My pain gauge is so off and I can’t tell what’s bad and normal anymore. The pain is constant.

The replaced the rod with a bigger rod which meant more drilling and put a plate on the side of my femur. Of course that means there’s a lot of bolts. There is so much metal in my legs man lol. This time there’s only 5 incisions but the one from the plate is bigger than my hand rip. My surgery went from 4 hrs to 6 hrs because they had difficulty getting the metal fragments out of my bone. I had 2-3 units of blood during surgery and 2 units right after surgery. The blood loss this time was the worst and I was cold to the touch and white as porcelain as my husband said. I swear I was anesthesia sick forever and my arms/shoulder still hit from being in the table.
I’ve been dealing with the pain with minimal pain management bc my doctors are giving me opioid alternatives. Regardless I’ve been managing without anything but I’m so tired and I just want it to stop. I’m not healing normal and it’s excruciating/exhausting everyday.

I just woke up to another rejection from the second law firm I’ve been working with for my case. I have about $100,000 in medical bills. I’m so so so tired and I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m trying to just keep trying for my husband but everything is killing me. Even talking to lawyers is hard bc I’m just reciting everything, reliving it, then being rejected. I tried the go fund me route but it didn’t work. My husband had to start working two jobs after everything happened and it’s killing him too. I don’t know anymore.