u/Abhyuday008

In the dream, a girl I know suddenly became extremely close to me. She never directly said she liked me, but everything about her behavior made it obvious — hugging me, staying close to me, touching me affectionately, wanting to travel with me across India, etc. The entire atmosphere of the dream felt warm, comforting, exciting, and weirdly real.

At one point we were traveling together on a bus and she leaned in for a kiss, but during it she suddenly vomited into my mouth. Weirdest part is that dream-me didn’t panic. I just held it in my mouth and spit it out the bus window. Somehow the dream continued normally after that.

Later we arrived at this insane place that looked like a modern Roman colosseum from the outside, but inside it was like a futuristic luxury hotel. I was taken into a special chamber and handed some kind of ceremonial staff that apparently made me the ruler/owner of the place. I went to the administration office, showed the staff to some older man there, and he immediately resigned and accepted me as the new boss.

The place itself felt surreal. The carpets were so soft they felt like walking on Jell-O, and there were fountains filled with alcohol or some kind of expensive drink. But even after suddenly being “important,” I didn’t really care much about the power. I just wanted to spend time with her.

Then her classmates showed up and immediately started teasing us like we were obviously a new couple. They were even joking about our height difference and suggesting sexual positions in a mocking/funny way. Apparently she had been single for years, so everyone was shocked she was suddenly attached to someone.

The entire dream felt emotionally perfect and comfortable in a way I haven’t felt in real life for a long time.

But here’s the part that’s messing with me:
I already have a girlfriend in real life, and in the dream I kept thinking about how I’d have to hide this relationship or lie about it. So even inside the dream, there was guilt mixed into everything.

Now that I’m awake, I genuinely feel emotionally empty. Not necessarily because of the girl herself, but because of how the dream made me feel — wanted, comfortable, understood, peaceful, excited about life again.

I know dreams are just dreams, but this one felt disturbingly real emotionally. Has anyone else had dreams that felt so emotionally complete that waking up almost felt like grief?