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Do u guys like it when I'm zesty....all freakiness aside...I want ur honest opninoons...like srsly

Y are u awake rn 😴😴....soona kawwe 🐦‍⬛ me hai 🫪🤏🏻🤏🏻🤏🏻

A smile is something special 🤗 a ribbon 🎀 is something rare 🌺✨ so I'll be special 💓 and I'll be rare ✨ with a smile 🤗 and a ribbon 🎀💓 in my hair 🫈

Doctor👨🏻‍⚕️: Hello, I was your sons doctor 💊

Sons parents👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨: Is our son all right? 😰

Doctor👨🏻‍⚕️: Unfortunately, yes...your son is all right 👍🏻

Sons parents 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨: Oh thank god 🤣🙏🏻.

Doctor 👨🏻‍⚕️: I'm happy you're taking this well, because other parents would've killed me rn 🫪.

Sons parents 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨: You said our sons all right 🥹

Doctor 👨🏻‍⚕️:.....yes....your son IS ALL RIGHT....his left side is gone...so your son is all RIGHT.

Sons parents 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨: TERI P******* K**** TUJHE DACTAR KISNE BNAYA 🫪 💅🏻 PEHLE APNE DIMAGH KA ILAAJ KRWA LE PHIR DOSRON KA DIMAGH SET KRNA...

Doctor 👨🏻‍⚕️: ACHAWWWWW.....ATLEAST MERA BETA TO PURA SAHI SALAMAT HAI NA...APKE PAAS TO DAID (half) BACHA HAI 🤣🤣🤣🫵🏻🫵🏻🫵🏻

>!MEOWWWWW 🫪!<

Like are u guys lying down...do u guys got a Chadar ? U guys crunched up all comfy 🫪🫪🫪

R u guys sitting on a chair using reddit on ur laptop 💻

R u guys lying down on ur couch all slouched up and sleepy 😴

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Hi, nice to meet you guys. I need help or advice regarding on how to tell my parents I had schizophrenia. I know how it sounds, a teenager surrounded by technology,young and what not.

But I really did have schizophrenia, for 2 years.

It started when I was 14, it felt like I had another person living in my head. It would change faces every day his voice would change everyday. It would give me thoughts like none other. It felt like I had no control over my brain. No control over anything in my brain. He would be there every second of my life. It was tough I can't lie. Living with him inside my head for 1 year. But I killed him in my brain. I know it sounds weird, but isn't everything about schizophrenia weird (that was a joke).

But the real pain started after that. After him I started having chronic migraines when I was 15...every single day for 3 months. All I wanted to do was destroy my head. I would bang it on walls. I would punch it while I was in school.

(Honestly all of this started because of my school. I was scared for my exams so bad I can't tell you)

Well after the migrans stopped...I started noticing how people would look at me while talking or do certain actions whenever I had a bad thought or if I had a bad thought (intrusive thoughts). I got scared. I was scared that everyone was listening to me. Everyone could hear what was going in my brain. And things started to get worse when alot of these coincidences would happen when people would do certain actions when I used to get weird thoughts.

I was scared so bad. I used to sweat everytime I was with someone. I was scared out of my life everyday. People could hear what I was thinking about. People knew what I was saying in my head. I heated my brain. I hated it. I hated everything. The fear of people hearing my thoughts. I would constrict my thoughts, due to which I would get violent thoughts. I can't even tell you how violent they were man. I also joined a new school filled with shit heads. Sure I could take them on and I did get into fights and i would win, but they always were there.

I wanted to kill myself everyday. While the kids would eat my head everyday for 6 hours in school. I was expected to get amazing numbers in my 9th and 10th. The amount of time i used to study with that fucking guy in my head. The struggle while studying thinking everyone could hear my brain.

I know this doesn't seem like much, but I can't describe in words how much fucking I wanted to kill myself everyday.

Also my father's paralyzed from his left side,we moved to another country and have been stuck in this shithole for 7 years now. We had to start with 0 with no money. Thankfully some relatives took us in.When I was 11 I started having motor tics (tourettes without verbal tics) and still do.

The thing is, that I'm alot better now...but sometimes I just remember all this and start having a panic attack.

My parents know nothing about my schizophrenia and my motor tics and I know that they deserve to know but I'm just scared shitless man. What would they think of me. I don't wanna just lay this on them all of a sudden.

SUMMARY: My father's paralyzed (still works). I've had schizophrenia for 2 years along with motor tics (tourettes without verbal tics). My parents know nothing and I need advice or help or I don't know what man. I just want to tell them but I'm just scared. What would they say, what would they think. I don't wanna just lay all this on them.

Mene abhi aik chipkli a bacha dekha....wo GHADDE ka bacha... sorry I meant, wo chipkli ka bacha itna chota tha 🫪....me usse peer bhi maar skta tha magr mene Socha Kya hi kr le ga bechara... 🫪🫪🫪

Abhi Kuch din pehle hi is duniya me aya ho ga 👶🏻

Her name is Ayesha siddiqua 🫪🫪🫪....idek y she asked me to do it...but yes...han 😭😭😭

AB SE I GO BY THE NAME.....ABIDA PARVEEN....AHHHEE....CHAK DE PHADDE...

ABIDA PARVEEN THE BADDIEST BADDIE OF EM ALL 😍💅🏻💅🏻💅🏻...THANK YOU u/Raatpashemaankii FOR CHOOSING THIS DIVA OF A NAME 💅🏻(plums lips 👄 and checks out nails 💅🏻)

Do u guys actually like talking to eachother here....like gen1 baat hai...do u like talking with others here ya are u just doing it to be nice...asking for a friend ☺️☺️☺️

(Asking for myself....do u guys like talking to me or are u just being nice....no sugar coating 🫪🫪🫪)