Sinking My Teeth Into Pale (2) - Loud and Quiet Trauma
(Pervious post)
When we say trauma, we usually mean Shock Trauma: a single, harmful event that clashes with some basic assumptions that the afflicted person had about reality.
The most simple example of this is a person being bitten by a dog, and subsequently developing a phobia of dogs.
Complex Trauma is a term that was first explained to me as repeated Shock Trauma, which made me think about the person from the example above being repeatedly bitten by different dogs - but that, surprisingly, doesn’t qualify as Complex Trauma.
Clinically speaking, in order for an event to be considered Complex Trauma it needs to be both repetitive AND relational in nature - to happen between people, usually parent /child or prisoner/captor.
I’m going to go on a limb and guess that you’ve already came up with several examples for this - a girl being viciously bullied at school over the span of several months, a boy repeatedly failing to protect the women in his life from violent men, a borderline-feral girl being taken to a foster home where she is often punished for not complying with demands with which she is unequipped to comply.
While the person suffering from Shock Trauma can return to their normal life to recover, for the person going through Complex Trauma there is no “normal” to return to - they live in a constant state of tension, and so it’s not surprising that the post-traumatic-stress that is caused by Complex Trauma is characterized by symptoms that are more severe than those of Shock Trauma and a greater negative effect on one's ability to maintain social relations.
But while Complex Trauma has to have a relational element, it doesn’t have to come in the form of repeated Shock Trauma. Another example of Complex Trauma would be a girl growing up with a single father who demands that she provide his emotional needs while he ignores hers.
When looking for a reason why the suffering of Pale’s protagonists feels so different from the suffering in Worm and Pact, I initially went for the angle of Shock vs. Complex Trauma. But as I began to research for this essay, I realized that’s not the right way to slice it - first of all, Verona, Taylor, and Blake all suffer from clear cut cases of Complex Trauma, while Lucy and Avery are borderline cases[6].
Looking for another definition that would capture the difference, I tried going with Invisible Trauma, a term referring to either Shock or Complex Trauma that is hard to diagnose because the person is high functioning. Again, this was true for Verona and Brian, but not so much for Lucy and Avery.
In order to resolve this issue we're going to use the non-clinical terms Loud Trauma and Quiet Trauma.
In Loud Trauma, the person knows that something bad happened and likely knows that they suffer from Post Traumatic Stress. More importantly, they have a clear name for their trauma - something they can say and instantly get sympathy from other people, (perhaps over a fugly burger,) or at the very least get acknowledgement.
Someone suffering from Quiet Trauma, however, will find it difficult to communicate the gravity of their situation to other people.
It’s very easy to imagine a younger Verona failing to explain how neglected she felt by her father:
“It’s like he doesn’t care about me at all!”
“What, he ignores you?”
“No, he… He actually wants us to spend time together, pretty much all of the time.”
“So what’s the problem?”
But the real kicker of Quiet Trauma is in the fact that the afflicted person might not even know that they are suffering from it.
Pale provides many small, quiet heartbreaks, and my favorite one might be the moment where
Verona narrates the guilt she feels over having it so easy, compared to her friends - after all, she is straight and white, so what is she complaining about?
That guilt comes in sharp contrast with the fact that from a clinical point of view, the trauma that she endured is significantly more severe than theirs, as are its symptoms.
This shouldn’t be taken as a diminishment of Avery’s and Lucy’s suffering. Whether or not the girls’ suffering clinically qualifies as trauma, it’s intense, constant, and damaging. That damage is worsened by the lack of solidarity or empathy. Just like with Verona, it’s easy to imagine someone well-meaning-but-ignorant trying to talk to the girls and not really getting it:
“I’m the only black kid in a white town.”
“Oh, I’m so sorry. Are they, like, racist to you?”
“Actually… I don’t know.”
“So… What’s the problem?”
Or in Avery’s case:
“I don’t have any friends.”
“Oh, maybe you should play some sports.”
“I’m already playing sports.”
“So… what’s the problem? Just make friends there, or maybe talk to some people in class. If you’re feeling lonely, you can always play with your siblings!”
For a person going through Quiet Trauma, it’s easy to take society’s cue that there’s nothing wrong, and be swayed away from seeking a pragmatic solution to their problems, therapy, or even a name for their situation.
There’s a lot of comfort in being diagnosed. It’s not just that the diagnosed person can be relieved of the guilt that comes with seeing themselves as “just weird/weak/stupid”, but it also allows them to seek external knowledge and learn how to manage the condition.
All of these benefits are often denied from the person suffering from Quiet Trauma, that is by definition undiagnosed.
This is one of the most important ways in which Pale informs the reader about the real world - after diving into those perspectives, seeing the girls’ troubles up close, the reader is transformed into someone who is far less likely to make the same mistake as the well-meaning-but-ignorant person depicted above. Someone that, hopefully, will know when to validate someone's experience of nameless suffering.
Like other works by this author, Pale champions the value of seeing more perspectives, urging and luring the reader into expanding their view, into acknowledging how little we know about the lives that other people live.
While Worm expanded our views on Loud Trauma (be it Shock or Complex, Visible or Invisible), Pale aims to do so with Quiet Trauma, as it is the main source of suffering for heroes, villains, and everyone in between. From characters as unmemorable as Henrrietta, who is unable to bed the man she loves after years of unconsenting proximity to her “brothers”, all the way to Carmine Beast who’s at the heart of this bloody mess, slowly eroded by the oppressive denial of her very nature.
“What about Melissa?” You ask, your eyebrows furrowed. “Her trauma is breaking her ankle so badly it almost snapped off. That sounds like Loud Trauma to me.”
Pun intended? No? Okay, it’s tempting to think of Melissa’s ankle-snapping incident as a single event that ruins her life, and it is, but notice that her suffering doesn’t stem from the event itself (she doesn’t have nightmares about the fall itself or pain, and she isn’t triggered by heights) but from her isolation. The social connections that were reliant on her ability to land a backflip are now gone and, to add insult to injury, she’s now unable to do the one thing she was actually proud of.
Nicolette's case is similar. Her trauma isn’t being pushed into a bathtub and breaking her skull - it’s being surrounded by people who simply don't care about her suffering.
“What about Drowne, though?” you ask, eyes narrowed. “He was beaten so badly his face was disfigured. That has to be Loud Trauma.”
Fair enough, I’ll give you that one. Loud Trauma does exist in this book, but it’s not at the focus. While we’re talking about Drowne, I should say that he provides one of the clearest examples of a traumatized person recreating their trauma. This is easy to see in the case of Loud Trauma (such as Drowne intentionally disfiguring Reid Musser’s face, or most characters in Worm doing basically anything), but it’s harder to catch in cases of Quiet Trauma - such as Verona’s avoidant attachment actively making it harder for Jeremy to meet the needs her father didn’t; Lucy’s hostility alienating her from her classmates; and Avery’s loneliness motivating her plans to become a solo traveler (maybe?).
Mellissa can be seen as recreating her rejection, or attempting to, by being so deeply obnoxious to the trio instead of jumping[7] at the opportunity to befriend them.
Nicolette might be seen as replicating the cold environment she grew up in by working for Alexander (who makes it clear how little he cares by gainsaying her on a regular basis), or it might be a pragmatic decision that has nothing to do with her trauma. I don’t know.
The further away we get from the protagonists, the harder it becomes to see these things clearly, but I think that’s the point - it’s easy to interact with people suffering from Quiet Trauma and have no idea what kind of internal despair they’re struggling with.
Despair, or perhaps it would be more accurate to say desperation, is the keystone of the worldbuilding of Pale. There is a sense in which every single being in this world is barely holding on - not just recovering from the trauma of having their needs unmet for an extended period of time, but living those unmet needs.
This translates to an underlying tension, the feeling that getting what you want always comes at the price of denying someone what they need.
This is true across timescales. On the one hand we have Reggie, the composite kid, who survives one week at a time, unable to afford not to screw others over. On the other hand, we have the ancient Carmine Beast and Guilherme, who likewise find themselves crushed over centuries by forces beyond their control.
That quiet desperation, or more accurately the perspective through which it could be used to excuse cruelty, is the real antagonist of this book.
Beyond any particular adversity, beyond any particular challenge, the girls’ true goal is to defeat that desperation and the systems that perpetuate it, to prove that we can make this world one where sentient beings help one another. While Taylor aspired to get everyone to work together, the wild practitioners aim to cultivate paradise one relationship at a time, each one in their own way.
At first I thought that the strong friendship between the girls was a literary tool, alleviating the suffering that was so ubiquitous in the author’s works - and let me tell you, I was not complaining.
It’s so nice to enjoy the unique beauty and sophistication of the author’s writing without having to endure a constant psychic assault…
(You nod in enthusiastic agreement.)
… but now I realize it’s more than that - it’s a proof of concept. The girls prove, with their own none-transactional alliance, that such a thing is possible - the first small step from which they seek to expand the garden through the bonds they form.
And the word prove is important here - because desperation isn’t the real enemy, but the lie that things have to be this way, that the world isn’t nice so we can’t afford to be nice. This is what the girls aim to disprove, from the very first scene (not including the prologue), from the very first interaction between my most hated character in this book and my favorite one, who is, of course…
Verona - I'm In This Picture And I Don't Like It
(Which I'll post on the subreddit and link here as soon as I'm done writing it.)
Footnotes:
[6] On paper, Lucy’s case doesn’t qualify as Complex Trauma precisely because she has one healthy and loving parental relationship, something that Verona doesn’t. Whether or not Avery suffers from Complex Trauma would be even harder to diagnose.
According to the therapist I consulted for the writing of this essay, in order to make a diagnosis someone would have to sit down and talk to the girls, and evaluate the severity of the symptoms. Even then, there is no clear threshold to what qualifies as Post-Traumatic-Stress and what doesn’t. The word "Spectrum" was brought up several times.
[7] Pun fully intended, lol.