u/AROACETAKEOVER

I am a monster and I feel disgusting so I have a horrible fear of semen getting on things then people touching those things and I mean I am 17 and like I touch things before I was my hands whether it be my devices, door handles, faucets and the shower or me bumping into things with my dirty clothes and those germs getting on the things I bump into since I go commando and like my clothes ARE dirty and I just leave them in my hamper which is over flooded with those same dirty clothes and stay there for so long so they are just there as a biohazard that can infect people with semen and like even if I wash them they feel dirty cause I only wash them once and I do no think they are clean meaning the clothes I wear spread semen germs and I feel so sick I used to not be this obsessed with this and relaxed with the germs but that makes me more sick when I did not shower after or wash my hands it makes me sick and like worried it spread to my family more seriously my little brother or my baby/toddler cousins and like I feel like my room is infected because I have private moments on my bare mattress so my mattress is a biohazard now too and the same thing with a couch in our house that people use and my door and my plush toys in the room and everything else I asked my dad if we can throw the mattresses out but idk how to clean my whole house I wanna reorganize but what if the stuff is infected and I do not handle it and it stays there or the chair I am sitting in or the showers I am using that others use that I do not clean or the stuff I touched that people use like towels or containers or stuff in the kitchens everything in the kitchen of the toilets people sit on or cabinets I touched or the washing machine or anything else I touched I do not remember everything but I am scared it is infecting everyone from friends, family, my school everything. I feel like a sick pervert/sexual criminal. Anyone else I know would call me a sick person because of this.

So I(17M) am having a horrible time because my uncle came over Monday night and the next morning he was sleeping in my room on my little brother’s former bed since we shared a room and I would not care if I was not terrified about the potential germs in there (specifically THOSE types of bodily fluids) because I have private moments in that room on my bed (which had been on the bare mattress for almost a year) and I did not sleep in there for fear of those bodily fluid germs spreading but now I see it was just increasing exposure of my family members (specifically my toddler/baby cousins and my little brother) because I had piles and piles of dirty clothes that had those dirty bodily fluids on them and he was in that room came into contact with those clothes put his charger into the pile of clothes to reach an outlet and of course that means the charger is filthy and he like I mentioned was sleeping on my little brother’s bed(Little brother does not use it anymore) which I think was infected because it was in the room next to my mattress so I know I bumped into the bed or maybe touched it without washing my hands after those private moments so it is infected and my uncle used it, slept on it so he spread those germs on himself and his things and then around our house and the snacks we eat. I did text him when I went to school that morning after I found him in there I sent this “Also My room is not clean and I am worried your stuff might be/get infected or dirty because of my dirty clothes and the other dirty stuff in there and I did not clean the bathroom and other stuff and so just don’t want you to get germs on your stuff like your charger or clothes or shoes and spread it to other or stuff “ and he responded “Darrell stop being a germ freak. If you were really concerned it would be clean all the time. But I can clean it up. “ and of course he decides to clean my room himself exposing himself even more not only did he put my dirty clothes on my mattress but also my little brother’s clothes and he just like kept doing it he kept cleaning my room and he washed my socks which were used during those private moments with my little brother’s clothes which is gross and means he touched those bodily fluid socks and the washer and everything else people in the house will touch and he also touched my IPad which I used during those private moments I had and I have not cleaned it off in a long long time so I know it is filthy with bodily fluid germs and I know he did not wash his hands after so those bodily fluid germs got everywhere his stuff, our stuff, everything and he has kids(my baby/toddler cousins) so when he touched their stuff that is in his bag it is infected so they will get it on them. And he still slept in there today and he had his stuff on the dirty bodily fluid floor so his glasses wallet and stuff was infected and was covered in dirty blankets like when I say dirty I mean it so I texted him again saying, “[Uncle name] the covers you are using are dirty both of them are they both have bad “germs” and I needed to wash them. The whole room has those bad “germs” and that is why I did not want anyone going in there and such I was terrified that someone would go in there and get those germs on them and I was worried about it getting on you and then it getting on the kids and your stuff especially since you were moving my dirty clothes and those bad “germs” were there too and I am sorry I did not say anything sooner” but this just issued him to wash the stuff but that does not change the bodily fluid germs he got on himself. I want advice I am terrified he touched his kids metal water bottles he put them in his bag and his charger on top of the bottles so now those are infected the bag, the metal water bottles and everything he touched when he was in my room and did not wash his hands so appliances like the fridge, stove, dishes, microwave and our countertops, seats and food. I need advice I am a sick person whose negligence and terrible hygiene let this happen I did not even mention the bathroom how dirty that was or the shower I use which he used that I did not clean so the curtain, soap container and shower and it’s handles and the door handles to my room and the bathroom all most likely had bodily fluid germs on it and now it will be spread to vulnerable kids and my family my brother I feel sick I do not feel like I mentioned all of it and I feel like if I miss something I am not telling the full story and risking more people. I know my uncle is going to sleep in there again and idk what to do. Update: He was in there sleep again today and he was charging his phone and he put his phone on the table in my room which I know is filthy because I touched it without washing my hands after a private moment and the same goes for the outlet he put his charger into and he put his other chargers on my bed and on top of this used my dirty adapter to plug his charger into so of course he got exposed again and I am at a loss. (edited)

Ok so my uncle randomly came over at 9pm and like omg I am 17 and my family hasn’t deep cleaned our house for a long time like I wanna say 2 years and it did not make it better that a family member died so now it is really not getting done And the bathroom is not clean but my uncle used it I am mostly worried about bodily fluids more specifically semen and it is a really bad fear for me because obviously I am a teen I have private moments and like I try and just shower and clean myself up but I think I do a poor job and I am scared cause I touch a lot of stuff before I wash my hands like my clothes, Nintendo and the controllers, my chair and obviously my bed (which has not had any sheets on it for a good while now so it is a bare mattress) and like I am scared of the potential of someone getting those germs on them because I would be a sexual criminal and like I was so relaxed about this in the past and now I feel disgusted about it especially since I have baby cousins who come to the house and I keep telling myself “I’ll clean my room” but it does not happen my room has a huge pile of clothes in it and they are all dirty as in they have semen germs on them and due to my negligence to clean led to my baby cousins laying in a pile of my clothes and I tried to tell myself it was fine but it isn’t it is sick I am a criminal and my baby cousins enter my room a lot and even back when I was relaxed with the germs so now I feel even more sick who knows how much of those germs got on them and I used to share my room with my little brother so it could have gotten on him and his bed and his bed is still in the room so I am scared his bed has semen germs including the covers and mattress and like it could spread around the house get on the food people eat it it is gross and the thought of my little brother or dad or any family members especially the kids getting those germs on them make me sick and they are prevalent in the bathroom and I know I do not clean it that well just spray it with Lysol all purpose cleaner do not even wipe it up so it probably does not do anything and my family is exposed to that and it spreads through what they touch like their car, phone, computer, remotes, the fridge, food. I keep saying I am disgusted yet I do not do anything to stop this I just feel bad the bathroom they all use has not been refilled with soap (which we have) for a good long time. My uncle as I said who visited last night I found him laying on my little brother’s bed (since my little brother has not used it in a while) and his charger is in the wall socket surrounded by my dirty clothes and earlier I saw him I think touching my dirty clothes and this just broke me he has kids (my little cousins) he could spread those germs to his family his devices and stuff he owns and around our house he is also a teacher so it could get to his students or class or friends. His backpack and shoes were also on the ground in my room which means they are also infected along with his clothes and he used the bathroom the dirty one and sat in the kitchen so now the kitchen is infected and I am out of stuff to clean and Idk when I can get more I’m going to the mall with my friends later and I felt gross asking him to drive me I mean I infected him but earlier I sent him this text after asking him “Also My room is not clean and I am worried your stuff might be/get infected or dirty because of my dirty clothes and the other dirty stuff in there and I did not clean the bathroom and other stuff and so just don’t want you to get germs on your stuff like your charger or clothes or shoes and spread it to other or stuff” and he responded “Darrell stop being a germ freak. If you were really concerned it would be clean all the time. But I can clean it up.” I did not know what he meant but I enter my room like 30 minutes later and my dirty clothes are on my bare mattress and my little brothers clothes that were on his bed and this honestly just broke me more he touched my clothes and mixed my dirty clothes with my little brother’s clothes so I feel sick my room has not been clean for like a year or so and I feel like the semen germs have been stockpiling in there because I have private moments in there still and the door handles and like and people enter my room the floor is filthy my desk is filthy my mattress is filthy since it has no sheets on it so when I have private moments it is on the mattress which is bad and like omg. My uncle did not wash his hands after he did all of that and he got food after so our food is infected including the box it was in and the fridge since I know he touched it and a lot of other stuff and he kept doing stuff in my room to clean up like sweeping and using a dirty broom which had been in my room for a bit so it had those germs on it and he used his hands to get it up with a piece of paper since he could not find the dust pan. And again no hand washing he is using his phone and computer so they are infected too and like I am panicking Idk what to do I am at a loss.

Ok so my uncle randomly came over at 9pm and like omg I am 17 and my family hasn’t deep cleaned our house for a long time like I wanna say 2 years and it did not make it better that a family member died so now it is really not getting done And the bathroom is not clean but my uncle used it I am mostly worried about bodily fluids more specifically semen and it is a really bad fear for me because obviously I am a teen I have private moments and like I try and just shower and clean myself up but I think I do a poor job and I am scared cause I touch a lot of stuff before I wash my hands like my clothes, Nintendo and the controllers, my chair and obviously my bed (which has not had any sheets on it for a good while now so it is a bare mattress) and like I am scared of the potential of someone getting those germs on them because I would be a sexual criminal and like I was so relaxed about this in the past and now I feel disgusted about it especially since I have baby cousins who come to the house and I keep telling myself “I’ll clean my room” but it does not happen my room has a huge pile of clothes in it and they are all dirty as in they have semen germs on them and due to my negligence to clean led to my baby cousins laying in a pile of my clothes and I tried to tell myself it was fine but it isn’t it is sick I am a criminal and my baby cousins enter my room a lot and even back when I was relaxed with the germs so now I feel even more sick who knows how much of those germs got on them and I used to share my room with my little brother so it could have gotten on him and his bed and his bed is still in the room so I am scared his bed has semen germs including the covers and mattress and like it could spread around the house get on the food people eat it it is gross and the thought of my little brother or dad or any family members especially the kids getting those germs on them make me sick and they are prevalent in the bathroom and I know I do not clean it that well just spray it with Lysol all purpose cleaner do not even wipe it up so it probably does not do anything and my family is exposed to that and it spreads through what they touch like their car, phone, computer, remotes, the fridge, food. I keep saying I am disgusted yet I do not do anything to stop this I just feel bad the bathroom they all use has not been refilled with soap (which we have) for a good long time. My uncle as I said who visited last night I found him laying on my little brother’s bed (since my little brother has not used it in a while) and his charger is in the wall socket surrounded by my dirty clothes and earlier I saw him I think touching my dirty clothes and this just broke me he has kids (my little cousins) he could spread those germs to his family his devices and stuff he owns and around our house he is also a teacher so it could get to his students or class or friends. His backpack and shoes were also on the ground in my room which means they are also infected along with his clothes and he used the bathroom the dirty one and sat in the kitchen so now the kitchen is infected and I am out of stuff to clean and Idk when I can get more I’m going to the mall with my friends later and I felt gross asking him to drive me I mean I infected him but earlier I sent him this text after asking him “Also My room is not clean and I am worried your stuff might be/get infected or dirty because of my dirty clothes and the other dirty stuff in there and I did not clean the bathroom and other stuff and so just don’t want you to get germs on your stuff like your charger or clothes or shoes and spread it to other or stuff” and he responded “Darrell stop being a germ freak. If you were really concerned it would be clean all the time. But I can clean it up.” I did not know what he meant but I enter my room like 30 minutes later and my dirty clothes are on my bare mattress and my little brothers clothes that were on his bed and this honestly just broke me more he touched my clothes and mixed my dirty clothes with my little brother’s clothes so I feel sick my room has not been clean for like a year or so and I feel like the semen germs have been stockpiling in there because I have private moments in there still and the door handles and like and people enter my room the floor is filthy my desk is filthy my mattress is filthy since it has no sheets on it so when I have private moments it is on the mattress which is bad and like omg. My uncle did not wash his hands after he did all of that and he got food after so our food is infected including the box it was in and the fridge since I know he touched it and a lot of other stuff and he kept doing stuff in my room to clean up like sweeping and using a dirty broom which had been in my room for a bit so it had those germs on it and he used his hands to get it up with a piece of paper since he could not find the dust pan. And again no hand washing he is using his phone and computer so they are infected too and like I am panicking Idk what to do I am at a loss.