u/AGuyPhightingback

I saw a stat that only 2% - 3% of all men experience AGP so, taking into account how ultra rare we are, I was wondering if any of you have ever spoken to someone else that has it. I’ve never had the opportunity, and though I do understand that it’s an extremely private struggle, I’d be extremely open to discussing my AGP experience in person with someone else who 100% understands what I’m going through. I feel like it would be almost therapeutic.

Have any of you had the opportunity to discuss this in person with someone else experiencing it?

Thanks for your time!

I’ve suffered from AGP since 11 years old but I truthfully didn’t know what it was or knew there was another human being that experienced it until this year when I finally decided to do some research on it. I had genuinely never heard of the term before and I knew I didn’t fit into the Trans or Gender Dysphoria / Fluid camps, I was just simply turned on by wearing female underwear, plumping up my chest or underwear to simulate having boobs or a big butt and generally by the idea of being a woman overall. Soon after, I discovered this sub and realized for the first time ever that I was NOT alone, that there were many, many others that struggle with this same situation.

Media like Ranma 1/2, I My Me! Strawberry Eggs, and the James Gunn Scooby Doo Movie (the scene where Fred swaps into Daphne’s body) lit the fire in the early 2000’s and it truly never went away after that, only gradually burning hotter and hotter as I got older. I went from secretly wearing panties to falling into a horrible porn addiction, to discovering a burning desire for solo anal play, to looking at beautiful women in envy, wishing I could be them.

Did I ever tell my parents, my wife, my friends, my siblings? No! I couldn’t! How could I? I was never the toughest kid, or the manliest man, but I‘ve been a Jesus following Christian since 13 with a Christian upbringing and a Christian wife. I’ve tried to follow His lead and I don't want these feelings or desires but I have struggled every single day for nearly a quarter of a century fighting them, often losing along the way. (I’m so grateful to know that Jesus died and rose again so that I may be forgiven of my sins and spend eternity with Him in Heaven!)

Well yesterday something amazing happened. After watching “Michael” in theaters with my blood brother, and having a deep conversation about our complicated past, I finally built up the courage to share my deepest, darkest secret out loud with another human being. Him. I told him, “I have to tell you something, bro.” His face wrinkled. “What’s up? Oh you’re serious. What’s going on bro?”

It took me what felt like forever, but it must’ve taken about 90 seconds, to choke down any last ounces of fear and shame I had running through me, to practically whisper out, “Since I was 11 I’ve suffered from what’s called Autogynephilia.” To no one here’s surprise, he didn’t know what the word meant. After listening to a few of his attempts to break down what the word meant (one was “The Love of Women?” - I mean, YES, very much yes) I was forced to literally spell it out for him which had me shaking in my skin.

He heard me out, listened to my explanation of what it is and what it feels like, and then grinned. ”Hmmf.” He shrugged, “Being a sexy chick WOULD be kinda hot!” We both died of laughter and he followed up by stating that he had no idea I suffered from such a thing. I was surprised in a way because when I was 12-14 I would not so discreetly walk around with shirts stuffed in my underwear to make my butt look bigger throughout the house. I thought I was slick and it turned out I was! He felt pity when I told him about how much I’m going through with AGP and he encouraged me that even though it’s something that I’ll more than likely suffer from for the rest of my life, that I’ll be ok because I’ll always have him to talk to if I need to vent or share anything.”

After we hugged and went our separate ways I practically fainted on the drive home from shock. “I ACTUALLY TOLD SOMEONE!“ I kept shouting to myself! It was a massssive step for me! Jesus knows my suffering well but now someone down here know it too, and a gigantic weight fell off my shoulders just like that! It was amazingly liberating!

Now to tell my wife of 9 years. That will be much, much more difficult and I’ll update if I ever come around to doing it.

Thank you for reading. I pray you have an amazing day, that this encouraged you, and that you have the trusting support system to feel comfortable enough to tell someone and experience the relief I felt yesterday.

Much love!

I ask because I’m currently creating a manga about the exact scenario named “I Woke Up As My Dream Girl” and I’m using Ai as a visualization tool to bring the ideas out of my head into existence (Sorry haters of Ai). My AGP is, unfortunately, inherently sexual but I am NOT l creating this story as an ultimate fantasy-scenario-simulator for me, but instead as a piece of art that those in the AGP community can relate to, laugh at and enjoy! At the same time I’m aiming to be respectful and potentially create something that can help me funnel my undesired temptation into, to ultimately avoid regression (not sure if that will work but it’s worth a try).

So to help me start brainstorming the definitive AGP-themed manga, and if you’re comfortable sharing of course, I’d loved to hear what your initial reaction would be and what your first 24 hours of womanhood would look like if you magically woke up tomorrow as the woman you’ve always dreamed of being. Would you freak out, be relieved, try to find a way to change back or completely embrace it?

Any input would be appreciated! No harm intended. I’ll share updates and the manga pages with anyone who may be slightly interested.

Thanks!

The movie is available for FREE on Amazon Video and overall is a genuinely enjoyable experience!

A quick synopsis of it for clarity: Sam, a typical misogynistic jock who is a successful marketing agent for a lingerie company, is constantly flirting with and harassing all his female coworkers and generally just doesn’t respect women at all. One day he encounters a mysterious old man in a knick knack shop who peeps Sam’s disgraceful behavior and overall negative attitude towards women and he offers Sam some tea to sip on while he browses the store. Unbeknownst to Sam, he just drank a Magic concoction that will transform him into a bonafide woman the next morning. He wakes up and hijinks ensue as he battles with his internal hatred of women despite now BEING one, sees life from the other side including harassment and misogyny, and eventually struggles with accepting the fact that there’s no clear way of reversing the effects of that magic tea. His best friend, a doctor, tries his best to make sense of the situation but also struggles to decide whether he can no longer be around Sam due to it damaging his relationship with his fiancée or if he has unintentional feelings for his best friend, now turned, beautiful woman.

The movie is extraordinarily low budget but has a fun charm to it that made it hard to turn off, regardless of how cringe some of the dialogue was or amateur the acting seemed. The pacing is all over the place and I sometimes found myself skipping through a few sections of the film to find the meat and potatoes of the story, but ultimately it had a solid handful of hilarious and fantasy-like scenes that kept me entertained as someone struggling with AGP!

Overall I’d give it a solid 6.5/10 as a movie in general and an 8/10 for a movie in the AGP genre (though it’s the first of the genre that I’ve ever seen). I’d recommend to anyone in this community who isn‘t sensitive to regression due to media pertaining to AGP topics and to anyone who wants a good laugh at a scenario that I’m sure we’ve all dreamed about once or twice.

Thanks for reading! Has anyone else seen this movie? Thoughts?