I can see it happening. I am slowly declining. It feels like I can’t balance and I have no way to stop it. Trying to fight it is just exhausting and it feels useless. What’s worse is that I am a spectator in my own decline. It feels so hopeless.
Wednesday just passed me right on by and I wasn’t even thinking about it! Sorry! I think everybody could use some encouragement so let’s hear this week’s wins for you!
My wins for the week are that I took a shower, scheduled a vet appointment for my fur baby, and made plans to tour a clubhouse I think will be helpful in giving my life some much needed structure
I don’t know if this is normal for the diagnosis, but I don’t feel like I have anywhere I belong. I try fitting into different groups of people and I never quite fit in. The one place I was truly accepted feels like it’s getting toxic in terms of what it is asking me to believe. I am terrified that my disability will become my identity. I am afraid I will lose everything I value. I am afraid I am becoming a selfish bundle of need.
Help!
The YouTube channel is called Nature Relaxation Films. These videos are used in hospitals and are clinically proven to reduce stress and help patients heal. I find this helps when I need the distraction of watching a video, but need to relax. Their video on the aurora borealis I find particularly helpful. I hope this helps someone. Please let me know in comments if it’s helpful.
I think I could really benefit from having a service dog but I am really scared of what will happen when psychosis strikes. Does anybody have any thoughts or wisdom to offer? I would especially like feedback from someone who has a service dog.
I’ve seen Selfie Sunday, I’d like to start Wednesday Wins. I need more encouragement. I’m just guessing that everyone else needs more encouragement too.
My win for the week is doing research and actually having it stick. Like I can remember the gist of what I read. This is a big deal for me because usually stuff just floats right out of my brain.