TLDR: I dont feel like dealing with doctors anymore and am considering stopping going although I think I would be in danger of cardiovascular risk if I didnt pursue full diagnosis and treatment.
For the past five years Ive been battling severe health issues which doctors are finally now imaging my chest for arterial clot but only after six months of actively presenting all my symptoms to numerous doctors over and over and over. I originally went to the er and doctors many times 5 years ago too when symptoms first appeared but lost steam because I kept getting dismissed. I decided I was tired of living with daily vertigo for 5 years among other crazy symptoms and it couldnt be that hard to figure out and narrowed itndown to a few vascular issues that I wanted looked into and I finally have a chest ct scan ordered.
The past 5 months have been extremely upsetting as doctors would find ways to avoid further imaging. I have been so worried I didnt celebrate my birthday at all, I havent been able to have fun due to symptoms, I had to start therapy among basically being in fight or flight the whole time worrying no one would look into this, but I finally got the ct scan order and was so happy to do the ct scan coming up next wednesday. The following day I had hematology booked to discuss blood thinners once I had a concrete diagnosis. It took so much work to line everything up and schedule rides since I cant drive etc. I started to become normal and happy again and able to enjoy things u til Yesterday they called and said no one got the preauthorization and that it takes 15 days. also the bubble study I was supposed to do wasnt ordered and the nurse didnt understand why I would need that. i explained because that I am suspected to have arterial clot and thats why these were ordered but she didnt think I needed it.I never even heard of a bubble study thedoctor brought it up so he must have thought it was relevant! i feel like I climbed a mountain to get answers and for a week it seemed it would all be handled and I feel like Im back at square one. everything I thought I had lined up somehow isnt lined up and I either have to scurry to get things back on track which I keep having to do or just allow the tests to go uncompleted indefinitely or for several weeks further which delays all my next appointments for treatment by 3 more months.
i dont feel like dealing with doctors anymore there is always an issue and my mental health is not able to handle the dismissing and the general rigamarole of doctors and insurance