Growth scan stress- low percentile long bones
This is my second pregnancy and has been such a different experience from my first. No more smooth sailing. Every step has been a hurdle. First, a borderline NT, but normal NIPT and amniocentesis with microarray. Then the long bones were a bit small on anatomy scan, so more growth scans. Each one we get a "it's probably just because you and your husband are short, or the baby might have a skeletal dysplasia, but it's probably fine...." Baby's belly is measuring big (85%), head is normal (15-25%), but her arms and legs are <2% and 2-4 weeks behind now at 38 weeks.
I have felt so helpless this whole time since our 14 week scan. Every time I feel like I leave with no answers and just more doubt and fear that my baby will not be ok. That she will deal with something life altering. Nothing to do now but wait. I feel so guilty that I am avoiding preparations and not wanting to nest like I should because thinking too much about her just makes me so sad and anxious. Of course I will love her no matter what, but I just can't help but worry all the time about her. And all I want to do is hide now, because all everyone sees is how pregnant I am. And I don't want to talk about it. And the situation is too complicated and vague to share with people I'm not really close to.
Of course the few people i have told are telling me not to worry, but to also be prepared for the possibility of something. I just want nothing more for this precious baby girl, who I have loved every second since I saw that line, to be healthy. It's all I want and I have no control.