papa mmy puche the marks. fkin felt like disappointment ! Kaha easy paper mai 650+ cut off wali mai mere 537 aa rhe ! wth is wrong w me ! i ruined it all - I had everything i was in rankers batch, top of the batch, always 600+, spent countless nights without sleeping for fkin mocks tests twice or thrice a week for months. Have a fkin 4-5kg bundle of test papers nd dpps, solved most of modules. Only wrong thing was lack of revision and giving up hope in last couple months and not studying in last month thinking 'ab nahi hoga selection chordho'. I could have made it - but nvm only regrets remain !
but lucky me - got chill understanding parents who said 'koi nhi next year, learn from ur mistake". but they are like if not once then 2-3-4 times until u get it along with college,job ! like seriously man i just gave neet 1st attempt and i'll take one max drop thats it bro ! i dont have courage, or mental capability to do more than twice ! i already feel overwhelmed thinking of drop, other possibilities, past regrets nd all ! i am so exhausted and done w ts but still feeling guilty af !