I completed surgery, chemo, radiation last year and am on ovarian suppression, AI, and CDK4/6 inhibitor. I’ve been on Verzenio since July 2025 and my ANC has struggled (hovered around 1000, mild neutropenia). I just dropped below that into the moderate neutropenia zone and so my onc wants to decrease my dose (from 150 BID to 100 BID) For the remaining 15 mo
I know it’s the reasonable thing to do because I physically feel really shitty. I’m so fatigued that I’m not tolerating full time work, frequent diarrhea w sores on my bottom, occasional random fevers/constant chills, hair thinning that’s becoming noticeable through my 3” post-chemo regrowth. I’m in my 30s and am so tired of feeling crummy + decrepit… but I can do it
I feel really disappointed in my body for not being able to tolerate the full dose. I know it’s ”not my fault,” but I feel kinda like a BC failure. It’s the wrong mindset but I am going to feel so guilty if I relapse and will blame myself for not fighting through on the full dose. Any words of wisdom or encouragement?
*I know new research suggests 100 may be equal/close to as effective as the 150 dose, but mentally I just really wanted to be able to do the full dose so I would know I did everything I could