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Dear L
Hello my old friend, hasn't been that long since we parted ways but it's felt like a lifetime to me already, I wanted to tell you how proud of you I am, that even though I could not find my faith, you found yours. I know that you were with me through everything, every high moment every low one... you suffered alongside me in many ways just being someone who listened to me. You were there for me when the person I really needed to speak to was a shrink.. at first you were curious. You could tell how damaged I was, how fucked up.. you listened to understand me to see if you could save me. You were always my brother... when my real brother lost his mind and there was nothing left of him, you took his place. Even though our friendship came with a heavy toll, I tried my best to show you the way, I lent you all my knowledge all my dedication for years.. when you were defenseless, it was I who armed you. For years I tried to give a unbiased honest perspective.. but I felt the distance creeping in, an old familiar feeling.. I grew distant while nobody was looking.. became a former shell of myself.. I know that none of our friends approved of my choice In a wife.. but much like me she was misunderstood.. but she was there for me, healed my spirit and my mind. In my life I showed you many things.. the raging fire in my eyes, the steady calm approach to combat, I channeled my demons, more over I controlled them and harnessed a curse of madness into strength and power. You watched as I built my fortunes over 1,000 fold. You watched as I broke my enemy like it was effortless.. What I didn't tell you is that I'd been having some health issues.. that last night we drank at the bar just you and me I told you it was my first time drinking in 8 months.. it's because my health is failing.. but that night I wanted to forget I wanted to drink until I forgot. But you saw something rare that night, my body loose control.. it's because my left kidney is failing, and my hearts not great either.. I'd been having issues but never brought it up.. thats why over the last couple years I quit drinking, helped my body. But I retreated from social life.. it was wrong of me to say what I said to you.. but I was a bit hurt, and going through some stuff.. but i miss you now more than ever.. and my wife has given me something back so special, it's my dreams.. you never wondered how I seemed to know things, but you have know me.. how patient I am, how I watch the world silently observing.. this last dream is what I've seen, that our leaders will fail us, the union as we know it will dissolve. So I have left to build a sanctuary and a place to escape the madness of this world.. maybe im wrong but you have known how intuitive ive been my whole life, how i stay watching silently for years...I've used all my resources to get me to this point.. I understand if the toll has been to heavy and you cannot continue as my friend.. I will accept this. I am forever grateful to what you have done for me in my life.. and it won't be in vain.. when I leave this earth, my wealth has to go somewhere. And if the wife thinks im leaving her with everything then she would be wrong. But did I not show you the way? As lost as I am, I guided you the entire way to sucess.. but I truly showed you, that the line between Genius and Madness is muddy at best.
Your old friend,
Your brother
-Z