I’m 29 M and have had debilitating anxiety my entire adult life.
Effexor 150mg
Buspar 15mg
Xanax 1mg 3x a day
Lisinopril 40mg
I have multiple panic attacks every day and health anxiety that feels like it’s ruining my life. I zero in on every single sensation in my body and can’t let it go. I’ve been to the hospital so many times all due to me thinking I’m dying just to be told it’s anxiety EVERY time. Now my anxiety is causing not only fast heart rates but slow heart rates. I’m plagued by not being able to get away from panic no matter what. It affects every single system in my body. I can’t sleep well, my appetite is gone, my bowel movements are irregular, I’m having constant PVCs, my mind will not shut up and slow down, I have involuntary twitches all the time, frequent headaches, constant feeling of going crazy and derealization, I could go on and on but I’m sure most of you get it.
I have also lost my job, have zero income as of right now besides what I can DoorDash, and am engaged. So I have no money, no insurance, and although she won’t admit it I know my fiancee is exhausted of my anxiety (as am I) I just need some kind of help. I even tried to check myself in voluntarily to a mental hospital but was told since I wasn’t a danger to myself or others that they weren’t going to hold me. Can someone please help me with what to do? I am at a loss and feel like I was put here for more than just to be an anxiety filled void.