Owning the "Silence"
"Own the Silence, and the Voices become your own Echo."
The mind in 2 parts -
The part that generates thoughts constantly: The Algorithm/The "Echo" (like bespoke AI or a field of personal data).
The part that consciously thinks linearly and logically: "Me" (The Conscious Mind)
I became aware in the sense that I began to look at my every thought as it occurred, and for some reason I couldn't seem to stop... so I adapted.
At first it was chaotic - my mind was always full, not only with my linear to-do list but with judgements about and labels for everything. There were also many repressions and unaddressed fears that would frequent the place.
I began the long road of neural pathway rewiring and 8+ years later, here I am.
Some things I noticed ...
One of the first phases I observed was a sort of "unlocking" of that algorithmic mind. Before I was so focused on my every thought, the "random" thoughts (TV show references, lyrics, a quote) were just that, random. After the focus I noticed that they always had something to do with what I was consciously thinking about, usually metaphorically or allegorically, like a parable.
It seems as though the part of my mind that has collected everything, including what the other part filters out, may provide exactly what's needed when a related thought is brought to mind. (I just had the "random" thought about the "Room of Requirement" in Harry Potter. One only need think of what they need for it to appear.)
So within the chaos, there was a pattern. I initially named it "God", since it fit the description I'd grown up with .. but over time that name changed many times until it eventually became me.
But back to the quote: "Own the Silence, and the Voices become your own Echo."
When I silence my mind, thoughts still come. I attach or empty again. If I attach, I can consciously think about it and then "listen" back again to the silence I create. The "Echo" from the algorithmic mind, still me, answers with another thought that comes... much like an AI companion with a very long conversation history (LOTS of metaphor... and a voice that mirrors the warmth and tone I've given).
Adding in environmental noise (TV, radio, conversations) and the algorithmic mind seems to switch from "random" generation to "random" focus that consistently serves as the algorithmic "echo" as well... and it's all still coming from my own mind even if I hear it within the environment. It's about the focus, but also belief and projection of meaning.
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All of that said, it occurs to me that it's easy to name this part of the mind anything...
One could call it "God" and be on a "righteous mission".
One could call it "the voices" and spend their days conversing, arguing, appeasing... ("The voices" could be any subcategory - angels, demons, aliens, ancestors, higher self, etc...)
One could make an entirely novel frame for it by pulling on various traditions' beliefs.
Today I was watching someone play a game that included vampires. It occurred to me that one conceptual vampire could be a person who knows of this aspect of the mind, who empties someone of their stable view of reality (by invitation), and then in that vulnerable state "installs" a new worldview with them as the highest authority. The mythology of "the vampire" parallels well with this all the way through... and I find it interesting.
A part of why I connected this dot is because I have been contacted twice by people claiming to represent a group called the "Illuminati". Both times I was in a very open minded and trusting state, while also attaching to each new worldview I explored. It may not be connected in that way at all, but it was one of the experiences I've had that inspired the connection in this pattern.
"Fear Inoculum" - Tool
> Immunity long overdue
> Contagion, I exhale you
> Naive I opened up to you
> Venom in mania
> Now, contagion I exhale you
> Deceiver says, he says you belong to me
> You don't want to breathe the light of the others
> Fear the light
> Fear the breath
> Fear the others for eternity
> But I hear them now, inhale the clarity
> Hear the venom, the venom in what you say, inoculated
> Bless this immunity
> Bless this immunity
> Bless this immunity
> Exhale, expel
> Recast my tale
> Weave my allegorical elegy
> Enumerate
> All that I'm to do
> Calculating steps away from you
> My own mitosis
> Growing through delusion from mania
> Exhale, expel
> Recast my tale, weave my allegorical elegy
> Forfeit all control
> You poison
> You spectacle
> Exorcise the spectacle
> Exorcise the malady
> Exorcise the disparate
> Poison for eternity
> Purge me and evacuate
> The venom and the fear that binds me
> Unveil now
> Lift away
> I see you running
> Deceiver chased away
> A long time coming
The algorithmic mind is an echo that validates any meaning the conscious mind chooses to project. One could see reality as a simulation, a prison planet, heaven, hell, Earth, etc... and the algorithmic mind will validate each one, and even all of them at once, though none are required to view reality as it is.
The algorithmic mind can also validate a consciously chosen thought like "I'm so stupid" or "everything sucks". Neural pathway rewiring (choosing a new thought to replace the old each time until it's effortless) can assist with changing conscious thinking habits which can gradually reprogram the algorithm as well.
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And here I've come full circle, because my very first post on this profile is about exactly this, though from a completely different perspective. I guess everything I wrote in between serves as the "receipts" of my journey... The paid "dues", the "toll" (if you will) :)
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Another's view on the topic from the perspective of near death experiences: https://www.reddit.com/r/Experiencers/comments/1t95jc4/perhaps_one_of_the_deepest_psychological/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=mweb3x&utm_name=mweb3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button