u/4luviies

so I'm 18F and I've suffered with MAJOR anxiety for most of my life, obviously its been manageable over the years but as of these past 2-3 years its been completely taking over my life. I have emetephobia which is the fear of throwing up, and it truly takes over my life. I have panic attacks every single day and I never leave my house because I'm so scared. I have no friends, I'm dumb asf and am failing college, i cant get a job due to my anxiety. i just feel like I have nothing to live for anymore, i just lay in bed all day because i have absolutely no motivation to study, work out or even eat. it sounds pathetic and l've tried EVERYTHING (CBT therapy, breathing techniques etc) but i feel nauseous everyday i just want it to stop, i wish i could just take a pill that erased all my anxiety so i could finally be happy and make friends like a normal teenager. i feel like I'm wasting my life away. i just don't wanna be here anymore if i continue to feel like this everyday. i just want some advice or even hearing positive experiences will help a lot because i've lost all hope.