this is the first time I’ve ever had one of my SATs scenes play out right in front of my eyes in the the 3D, but it somehow happened under unfavorable circumstances? was i not being specific enough?
i’ve been manifesting commitment from my SP for a little while now (we’re FWBs) but this SP specifically is theee most triggering one i’ve ever had. long story short, he is quite the party animal (a bit difficult for me to rewrite this since we literally met at the club lol). on and off for a few months I’ve been doing SATs where i imagine us together over at his place, and he’s telling me he’d rather be with me instead of going out & partying anymore.
a couple of days ago, we were hanging out after a pretty intense phone call. during the phone call he was basically trying to end things with me bc i had brought up some small concerns regarding our dynamic & he said he couldn’t give me what i was looking for. i then lied & told him that i wouldn’t even get into a relationship with him because i had ruled him out as a long-term partner option bc of how much he parties. he got pretty flustered on the phone but ended up telling me i could come over anyways.
while we were hanging out, he was mostly dancing around what we had discussed on the phone but proceeded to give me 2 separate entire ass speeches on how he’s been “retired” from the club for a month & prefers staying in on the weekends. the LOA experts are gonna slap me here but i was so irritated while he was giving these speeches bc i know he was lying!!! from previous conversations i knew he had gone out very recently.
then, at one point we were laying on his bed talking and he turns to me & goes word for word: “i could’ve partied today but i didn’t want to, i’d rather stay in with you. it’s more fun.” Exactly as I had imagined it for months. it didn’t take too long for what had just happened to click & i had to take the deepest sigh ever. like was this some kind of jokeee 😭 what did i do wrong omg anyone pls