How much longer?
I’m a content creator, good note. But my everyday life does not match how my online life is. I may seem jolly and happy in my posts but behind the scenes I’m breaking and I honestly don’t know why? I went on any diet, I tried releasing ppl and still I ended up feeling low and alone…
Been stuck at the same deadend job for years afraid of improvement . Everyone had HIGH expectations of you and now you’re constantly getting criticism, speeches, advice… nothing seems genuine anymore bc you don’t feel like a human anymore… you feel like someone that everyone you know wants create bc you lost yourself and now you don’t even know who you are? .. you dream, fantasy, thoughts, silence….
I just want you to care for me, have faith in me, love me, hold me, make me comfortable,
Sucks I’d rather feel pain than feel okay… why am I used to pain? Idk…
I self sabotage I’m stuck in my head .
I removed social media just to remove the noise and yet I still feel the noise in my own head…
I just want…new…..