Welp… this is unexpected
Today I got the blue line, my period should have started 10 days ago, I thought it was the start of perimenopause… I was wrong.
I’m 44 turning 45 in a few months. I’ve never been pregnant before, and have never really been too sure about having kids.
I’ve been divorced for 13 years, my ex and I were together for 8 years, and for 4 of those years I wasn’t on birth control. He got the woman he cheated on me with pregnant 3 months after we got divorced, they’ve had 2 kids now.
I’ve been with my current boyfriend for 7 years, lived together for the last 3 years. He’s 55, and has a teenager from his previous marriage who stays with us half the time. He’s an amazing dad, like phenomenal.
I thought this ship had sailed, I genuinely thought I was infertile at this point. I’m really shocked.
I know there is a very low likelihood this continues into a full blown pregnancy, 50/50 miscarriage and given I have PCOS I suspect even higher.
So far only my boyfriend knows, it’s too early to talk to anyone else. He’s incredibly supportive.
I wish I could talk to my mom, but she would stress me out more than anything right now. (And I don’t want to get her hopes up. She wants a grandbaby so bad, and none of us had kids, my brothers and I… My brother’s wife had to have a hysterectomy a couple years ago, and my other brother is asexual).
Actually My entire generation of all my cousins, none of us had kids. We’re all in our 40s and 50s now, with no next generation, no grandparents.
I have no idea what I’m going to do, but for the first time in my life I’m actually in a spot where I could comfortably take care of a kid (financially, age wise I’m concerned…) But I was hoping to retire early, not start life all over again…
No clue what to do next, confirmation appointment with my OB/GYN is in 2 weeks. Crazy. I feel nauseous.