u/404lmageNotFound

I’ve seen this very cool light phenomenon that’s a literal purple flame , even in complete darkness I can see this color and I know it’s not good to focus on those light phenomena but my attention span is so bad and my brain is a very silent one as it is so it’s an easy task for a guy like me. Anyways I saw this beautiful purple mix with a YELLOW in almost this yin/yang style way. Idk , anyways hope yall have a good day lmk if you’ve also seen some cool stuff. Any ideas on how to draw this energy to parts of the body? (((Without visualization))) I have the inability to visualize images(why I stare at the literal back of my eyeballs)

Hello, total aphant here no visuals or real active internal monologue.
If anyone here, feels they not only lack imagery, but also literal thoughts themselves and have had some pretty serious encounters with alcohol, I’m just genuinely curious and it might be a dumb question, but: does alcohol itself effect us differently? Without a monologue who’s driving that ship? Without the ability to talk to yourself mid conversation in your head with your wife and go “damn I’m fucked up what’s 6x6 oh yeah I ain’t got a clue in the world I’m fucked up I better stop”
Here’s how it plays out and where exactly I get confused
Me drinking, vibing
A point in sobriety comes with my friends and wife they say I go from dead sober/quiet looking to absolutely shitfaced. I struggle with finding that meeting ground of drinking and vibing to not getting blacked out and just absolute gone.
I’ve decided to literally just not get drunk because I haven’t displayed that I can trust myself in those situations.

My votes “visualizers” but say it with a country accent

As you can see I need help

As a MF with Aphantasia (the inability to generate images with your minds eye) (The one that lets you relive moments or make an image of someone pop in your head)

And no active inner monologue the typical YouTube meditation walkthroughs don’t work it’ll be all “imagine a beach” yeah no. I really only have breathing techniques so far.

Don’t get me wrong the breathing techniques are good, but I feel like I’m missing something ya know?

Often see purple when meditating, which I’ve heard is a good thing?? -Im new any tips help