u/3tan_At0m_Shad0w

Why can’t I
Live like those who were, are, and will be
Walk and talk and sleep like them
Why can’t I
Laugh and cry and scream like them
And when the world is too much
Why can’t I
Fall and rise and dream like them
With hope or despair in my eyes and heart
Why can’t I
Beam with pride of my accomplishments
And say this was my work 
Why can’t I
Say this was all me
And not be called arrogant
Why can’t I
Depend on other like they do
Share a bond of trust
Why can’t I
Can’t cry on someone’s shoulder
And not have to worry of burdening them
Why can’t I
confess my deepest secrets
And know they will keep it safe with them
Why can’t I
Be free from these burdens
And from the judging eyes of the people arounds
Why can’t I?
Be the one who finally had enough
Who finally reach his boiling point
Why can’t I
Be the one to ask the universe break
As my mind grows to loud
Why can’t I?
Be the one to love freely
And not fear having to carry the love others give
Why can’t I
Be what they want me to be
Without having to break myself in a million pieces 
Why can’t I?

From

Etan Atom's shadow

Links

https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/1t38m0x/carry_me_forward/

https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/1t387qi/splitting/

What happens
When everything says you're wrong, 
That you're a mistake,
But with the love of those bound by blood
You make it through?

What happens
When you start wandering into the world, 
And knives are stabbed in your back,
And people push you down?

What happens
When you form a version of yourself
That is strong, smart, brave,
But when put to the test,
Always falls short?

What happens
When you try to keep up that strong front,
But the world decides to tear it down,
Brick by brick,
Pound by pound,
Until nothing is left
But shame and hopelessness?

What happens 
When that shame and hopelessness
Become anger and bitterness,
And they become your sole purpose in life,
Driving you to live even when you no longer see
A light at the end of the tunnel?

Tell me what happens
When you realize you are too weak to act on those feelings,
Of rage and anger and bitterness of the heart,
So you swallow them up,
And keep them locked away?

Tell me what happens
When those feelings start driving you insane, 
To the point where a speeding train looks like a mercy
That might finally bring some peace to a heart in turmoil?

Tell me what happens
When you realize the train or the noose wouldn’t solve anything,
Nor would the sweet revenge bring joy to your heart,
And a violent fists will never be able to give you that peace of mind
You crave so much?

Tell me what happens
When you're forced to move on,
As this cruel sphere keeps spinning,
With no regard for what you feel?

Tell me what happens
When you finally realize how little
And insignificant you are,
How no one understands,
How they don’t want to understand,
How your pain builds up to nothing
No growth, no lesson, no meaning?

I’ll tell you what happens.
Like a fire that burns for eternity,
The rage inside burns like the flames from hell,
Just like the sadness for what has been lost,
And the remorse as you realize what could have been.

I'll tell you what happens
When you wear a mask to keep everyone happy,
Everyone except yourself.
It makes you yearn for someone to notice,
For someone to understand,
But makes you believe
That no one is there.
So you walk this dark path alone
In hopes that one day
You find 
Peace.

From

Etan Atom's shadow

links

https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/1sxq0wn/you_are_my_missing_rib_i_say_pathetic/

https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/1t2d5vw/fallen_petals/