I feel deeply connected to everything is it possible true?
I have some questions as I feel deeply connected to the experiences but yet denied knowledge of their experiences. I feel like I have experience everything from dimension entity, shadow people, aliens, triangle, 3 dotted triangles.
I am 34 but I experience this from birth I believe as my birthday is very interesting as it does collide with major events. Soon to be 35 but not looking forward to it as I feel I will remember everything by than or as I watch the movie as it feels so similar to my own dreams.
Well there's a lot and a lot of information I am worried about writing them down and drawing them thinking the people would know if I do. But overall I think I should ask also sorry for so much information I do have autism well not sure if it's autism anymore maybe it's something else.
My experiences started as I was a child in school I had 2 friends that I believe now I remember they were aliens and I had dreams about being in a UFO and they were there and I believe they took me to their home world or somewhere. I also remember being scared of going to sleep and the sky as I feel it's something looking for me. But I believe I merged with a dimension entity as he said he was hiding from the others and I believe he said I would hide him and they like me but not him.
I remember after I did this I used to be happy but now terrified of the aliens and UFOs. I think this is the reason why my friends left I think they offer me to join them or they said I can't because of what happened I don't remember. But I feel since then being in 2 places at once like it's seem like I'm talking to someone else with a UFO and somewhere else close by but they are making it seem I'm still there or I am.
I remember recently that I was visited by the men in black I think a few times one at a home Depot store and at a field trip to a house at a Indian reserve and they ask me about stuff and said not to worry they won't know I'm gone I feel in between locations at once. I remember recently that my mom drove very far away on the freeway and we went to a science place I know because people were all walking around with lab coats and there was a curve building past the others that had windows this one had a tree next to it and parking in front of it. She was crying and said everything is going to be ok but she couldn't go with me. This building had no windows and was small but I remember there's was a desk with a girl and not much seating. But I got taken into a room and there was this guy he scared me I think. But he was in black outfits I believe and he asked me questions and he had a briefcase and he opened it and unfolded a led display and I believe it blinks and I think they gave me a injection too.
I believe I had went through something that I still feel till this day like I did something very terrible. I believe I did something by accident I maybe had powers but unsure. But I believe my memories are returning because of the atlas comet they ask me questions and I woke up one day to a portal next to me a few inches from my face. I could feel it and so much I feel like nothing like a dream but I know it wasn't. I only saw it for 2 seconds like I blackout after looking at it maybe because it scared me. But it was small maybe small entity came out or it was a dimension entity. But I know it had multiple colors and behind a white fog like that had worm like behind it movement and the portal was water like and steam like cold and hot I believe and moving with a color inside of the 4 colors. They asked me if humanity changed and I said no give me more time. They said no we will be back to pick you up with the others but I think maybe he said I have till he comes back. I believe I accidentally caused the problems because I was not allowed to do stuff I think only observed but now I think of how I can change humanity in days reform materials and make self efficient so people know how to do stuff and change society and merge society with aliens with how they do trades and stop greed.
I don't know if any of this is true but if it is I know I need to know so I can forgive them and myself. I also feel extremely drawn to Alaska like it's what I think about often. I also had dreams recently about military bases being attacked by aliens and I was there and one base was next to a cliff side of a beach I believe they rotate to go out for the weekend or certain times to avoid the satellites.
I feel like something is watching my dreams and observing me especially recently. Like a wave water effect something cause me to show me a dream and when it gets close it cause extremely terror feelings then I dream sometimes else. I recently past few days been waking up to loud sounds like knocking. I feel like my dreams recently had been the concept of dimensions. I feel like they are leaking into each other. Maybe I was made to fix it but I don't know.
I ask people to be respectful as I am currently going through stuff knowing if it's true or not. As my life is 34 years old I feel like if it's not or is either or I will need help I feel like if I see a alien I would be happy now. But I don't know because I feel they or the men in black cause me cause my frustrations and my family to go apart. I think my mom knows but she said let the past be the past and not saying it's not true or true. But she said she never lie to me but I trust her. If she signed a non disclosure and went through what I did she couldn't tell me if she wanted. But I feel me saying stuff on here will cause them to know I'm counting on it because I don't think if it's true they don't know how important I was to him. I also believe my dad not my dad and my original dad is maybe dead or still alive and is in fact a alien as a human and he rejected me due to my disability I think or because he can't I believe he's rich I don't know and my file of birth was classified. Unless I am having another person memories.
I thank you for reading this sorry it's a lot of information and not all. I also processing information as I get them randomly like a maze of complex abstract memories. I feel like it's leaking out and I did the gateway experience as well and my first time and it feels so familiar like it's the feeling I get daily but I had about 15 or more visions and images and a white barrel of something like a high pressure that gets frozen. Also I was looking from someone watching a planet with astroids and space stations though a water like white portal. The effects looking like transparent and wavy. Also a blueprint of some kind and a guy was running from black SUV next to a barn and he dropped a pill on the grass. They had black glasses I think. All of this in less than 15 minutes. I think I can get more but it scares me because I know they might find out or find me. Well I'm not worried about the aliens, men in black, and the military im worried about something worse than all of them and I believe it's a enemy and I feel like they are looking for me.