Joining Navy with history of suicide attempts; how can I get waiver
I am a 25 year old female who have history of two suicide attempts and 4 psychiatric hospitalizations.
Two of the hospitalizations were due to the attempts, obviously, and the other two were due to expressing suicidal ideations. All four hospitalizations happened back in 2023.
After that, I just lost faith in psychiatric treatments and decided to see my problems more objectively.
I am currently preparing for PA school and my plan is to start applying in 2028. If I get accepted, I want to apply for HPSP so that my tuition can be covered by the military. I also want to be a PA at trauma center, which military is the best opportunity for it. I've always had mad respect for those who serve in the military as well. I just never expected myself to want to join.
I chose death as the best solution back then. I grew up in domestic violence pretty much my whole life until I went to college. I went to college not having any idea on what I wanted to do for job and when it was time for me to graduate, I still didn't have a career set up for myself, which led to the thought that this life has gone wrong from the beginning.
I had to be independent because of abusive parent but I was barely affording living with a low income barista job and was suffering from severe anxiety (panic disorder). After my first suicide attempt, the doctor just took me off of benzodiazepine due to high risk of abuse. That made my condition worse because I had to just sit through panic attacks with no medication to help it. This led to the second attempt.
After my last (4th) psychiatric hospitalization, I have figured that my body is just very resistant to death right now so I pretty much gave up on dying and see where life takes me.
I got a new job as a dialysis technician and this is the first job I have found as a calling and actually motivated me the first time to advance my career further. No matter how overworkes I am, I still love what I am doing. I always wish I had more expertise in the field and could do more for my patients. I'm in the process of earning clinical hours required for all PA school applicants and I also volunteer as an EMT 12 hours/week.
I got discharged from the hospital back in November of 2023 and I stopped seeing my psychiatrist from 2024 February. mainly for financial difficulties and having someone sit in front of me just to tell me that it's okay to be broke was obviously not helpful. I exactly knew what my problem was. I had to be financially stable to be mentally stable.
I am not underestimating what it takes to serve in the military. I am aware of the physical and mental toll it will take on someone. I have started going to the gym to get physically stronger and I don't need any medications right now for anxiety and insomnia that I used to suffer from. Serving in the military is not a timeless opportunity where I can join any time I want. That's why I want this experience while I'm still considered young and healthy.
Besides my history of mental illness, I do not have any critical chronic or genetic conditions.
My last attempt led to a seizure and arrhythmia but I got a clearance that my heart is back to normal and my brain is also normally functioning. I have went to ER last year due to fainting for a few seconds from dehydration, not eating well, and heat.
For those who have similar experiences as me and got their waivers approved or know of anyone that got their waivers approved after some critical history like me, I'd really appreciate the comments.
I'd also appreciate feedbacks and tips regarding waivers.
I am going to try as best as I can.