Can't friggin surf....what is my problem?
Okay, so I've been attempting this surfing thing for collectively about 25-30 1/1.5/2 hour sessions for a couple years now. I've maybe "surfed" 2 waves...maybe. On those I have stood up at the end of the wave having not much power and glided a bit before falling off the back of the wave. I've tried surfing in lots of conditions. I am currently on an 8' wave storm and am 5'4" 120lbs soaking wet. I can catch waves. I have taken multiple lessons. For the life of me, I cannot stay up. I fall forward, backward and to either side. I have worked on my foot placement, pop up style, staying lower/higher, and looking down the wave/where im going, etc. I feel doomed. I am becoming convinced that no one has taken this long to figure it out in the history of the sport. I want it. I don't want to give up, but I literally brokedown balling the other day after immediately wiping out after catching 3 good waves in a row. Crying is not something I do unless I am grieving a serious loss. Has anyone else pushed through a block like this?