I’m trying so hard to better myself, I’ve managed to quit a lot of my addictions but struggle heavily with nicotine and porn. My moods have been swinging like crazy lately ye let and it’s bringing down so many people around me. Especially my girlfriend who’s is the most loving and caring soul i know. I started posting on tiktok bible quotes and such but have been falling off with that lately as well as my diet and the gym. I am really suffering to the point where I’ve began getting regular headaches when my mood is low. I just want to talk to some one who really makes me feel understood and can help but I can not afford anything like therapy. I don’t want to talk to my family or girlfriend as I often don’t feel listened too and then it makes me feel worse about not being understood. I hate the way I feel and make others feel. My relationship with Christ feels so far and I fail to read the word or pray when it matters most. I’m struggling to keep up with my uni work and I feel my daily life is next. I’ve said for probably more than a year how bad I just want to cry and let it all out naturally but I genuinely can not.
Thank you for reading