u/1XxRoadxSnakexX1

Ok for context I’m 17M I’ve become aware of mental health in the last 2 years or so after having a lot of signs of burnout and realizing some of my habits were atypical. I’m mostly curious if my conclusions are somewhat close to a logical interpretation, I’ve had issues with expression for practically my whole life and had always thought of it as a positive because I was always able to be neutral but recently it’s started to hinder me as when my friends think something’s funny I just don’t get it, when my girlfriend tells me how she feels I feel like Im not able to put the same amount of emotion in, when sad things happen such as deaths it just feels like whatever(exception was my dog that died of kidney failure about a year ago), all of this to say that it feels like I’m kind of just going through the motions and have to put on a mask of emotions so as to not be a dull person. Im not saying I feel zero emotions at all it just feels like it’s nowhere near what others express. I’ve tried finding reasons for it and did a lot of self reflection on how I’ve treated myself, my situations, and my actions and realized looking back that my family provided me what I needed and have always supported me but never truly mentioned feelings or anything about stress. This led me to realize that I never formed a stress management method, leading me to believe that the lack of emotion that I feel may be a form of coping. I know this sounds kind of pick me but I always feel like I’m making up everything and it always leads to me doing nothing but I want to be better and I know I need to ask someone what to do. If anyone has any suggestions on a form of therapy or if this idea makes sense I’d love any advice or input. I don’t have anyone I can really talk to about this stuff and that’s why I turned to Reddit. I know this was kind of a rant but I hope it make a little sense😓.