Hey, not too sure what I’m looking for - maybe tips in getting through this or just some reassurance that others have experienced this too…
I am absolutely hating breastfeeding right now. Like I’ve never particularly enjoyed it, most of the time it’s been when baby first latches I feel really stressed, like sensory overload, then it would settle and sometimes come back towards then end of the feed.
Since about the 8 month point the sensory overload feeling has been becoming more and more intense. Now at 10.5 months in I’m finding myself feeling intense rage at the sensation of breastfeeding. I’ve had to unlatch baby and go scream into a pillow in another room more times than I can count in the last few weeks. It literally makes me want to tear my hair out.
I’m trying to wean but the last couple of days baby has been teething along with a growth spurt. So after, managing to get down to 3/4 feeds a day, we’ve increased again because she just screams until she gets boob and refuses her food. By the bedtime feed I found myself screaming while she was still on the boob. I unlatched at that point and just rocked to sleep instead but I feel so guilty it’s unreal.
Has anyone else experienced this? Will it get better? Should I just pack in breastfeeding and switch to formula? My aim was a year and then to move straight onto a cup but I can’t spend the next month and a half feeling this rage and screaming every time I need to feed my baby.