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I found a way inside. It's been waiting for me all this time. [Update 3]
It was a letter. It had to be a letter. The words were indecipherable, but the shape of the message, the structure, was recognizable enough. [addressee] : [message], valedictory dash followed by a name. "Tsövel"? That sounded vaguely name-like, right? Either that or some Swede with dyslexia was trying to sell me a pair of stövel, or suede boots.
I figured there was one way to know for certain what side of First Date it came from: I would send a letter of my own back into the cavern. I'd toss it into the crevice, deeper than any person could reach from my side. If I got a message in return, I would know that I had truly contacted someone on the other side, and that I wasn't simply on the receiving end of a very elaborate joke.
My letter read: Hello. We are two brothers from [our city], Kentucky. We received your message, but couldn't decipher it. Give us a hint? I signed the letter with mine and Jacob's first names. I folded it up neatly and tied it with white thread, and on the morning of May 7th, I entered the caves from Lucy's farm. Needle is becoming a second home to me; I'm starting to feel like I could traverse it with my eyes closed. I sidestepped as deep as I could into First Date, my forward hand clutching the letter tight. Then, when I couldn't comfortably wedge myself any deeper, I flicked the letter into the other side of the pinch point like I was throwing a frisbee. Just for kicks, I tossed a pen in there as well, on the off chance that my correspondent didn't have one already. With any luck, I hadn't just tossed it down a gorge or into a puddle.
I hope my explanation of all this makes sense; I've had a hard time putting pen to paper recently. Actually, I've had a hard time focusing on anything since my most recent find. This awful pit in my stomach seems to grow by the day. I figured it was just nerves at first, but the more it grows the more it feels, strangely, like guilt. I feel like I've been caught doing something I shouldn't have, and now my every move is being surveilled.
Just the other day, I walked down Meadow Lane again, trying to glimpse inside the corner house as I passed by. The first floor had all its curtains drawn, and no filthy, cave-dwelling strangers grinned at me from the windows of the second. But as I continued my walk, I briefly made eye contact with one of the residents a few houses down. She was sitting on the steps of her house as a group of kids, presumably hers, played soccer on the lawn. I expected her to look away after a few seconds, but her suspicious gaze lingered on me long after I'd passed her by. Maybe it was nothing. She probably just knew I didn't belong to one of the beautiful mansions on her block and wanted to make sure I wasn't loitering. Still though, it left a bad taste in my mouth, and I can't help but wonder if there was more to it.
Anyway, back to the letter. I went back to Needle on the evening of May 8th, this time with my buddy Noah. We took the Redding Street entrance, which meant it took double the normal time to get to First Date, but I was happy to put up with a longer crawl if it meant having some company. It had been a while since I'd entered the stalactite-rich cavern from the Southern entrance.
On the East wall of the cavern that hosts First Date, there is a small, tight corridor. If you bend down and shine a flashlight into the passage, it looks like it dead-ends after a few meters. However, if you get down on your elbows and knees and worm your way inside, you'll eventually notice a hole on the ceiling of the passage that is impossible to see from the outside. This is the literal drop-in that Jacob and I have been using for years. You have to be in the know (or willing to get your hands dirty) just in order to see it, which I assume is why the cops haven't found Aunt Lucy's entrance into Needle Caves yet.
When I looked inside First Date, it took me a few seconds to spot another message. This one had been neatly folded into a little square and tied against the rock instead of wrapped around it—more akin to my own technique than what I'd previously found. I practically dove inside the claustrophobic passageway in my eagerness to grab the message. Noah and I made our ascent in record time. Even after I'd gone home and changed out of my dirty clothes, my hands were shaking as I sliced open the bindings and unfurled the thin, yellowed paper. The message, this time written in pen, read:
SAVE
Mason brother Jacob?
Tsövel nöwë Tzäni
Tzäni river
Tsäni-ke lo-nöld-tso äwa-nold-we-duwë-thël.
—Tsövel
Between the fourth and fifth lines, there was a small, hastily drawn picture of a person pinned between two curved lines.
Even in the safety and warmth of my childhood home, surrounded by my parents and siblings and family pets, reading that message gave me an overwhelming sense of unease. There was no longer any doubt that I was communicating with someone on the other side of that passageway. Someone who is either encoding their messages or who only speaks a language that doesn't seem to exist. Someone who seems to reside in a space that shouldn't even be accessible for humans, let alone livable. Someone who, based on the urgent first line of their message, seems either to be asking for help, or communicating their resolve to help someone else.
All I know for certain is that my correspondent, whoever they are, seems to know at least a few words of English, and interestingly, the punctuation marks in their language seems to mirror ours. I wondered if lines two and three, close together and similar in structure, were meant to parallel one another—to serve as some attempt at translation. As for the fourth line, well … Was I crazy to think that the "river" depicted looked a hell of a lot like First Date?
I mulled over the letter for days with little to show for my efforts. When I became sick of researching ciphers and dead languages, I walked or biked around my town, searching for hidden entrances into Needle. That effort also yielded little. Jacob and I had done a pretty good job on our survey; when I overlaid our route on a Google Map of the area, I was able to pinpoint the coordinates of First Date. The problem was that it sat directly beneath what had once been a tobacco field—now just a broad, flat expanse of dead weeds stretching in every direction. There was nothing to suggest that anything lay beneath it: no cave mouths, no depression, no jagged limestone outcropping poking through the soil.
I went back to the field yesterday afternoon, ducking beneath the old barbed wire fence at the property's edge and walking the perimeter, scanning for something I might've missed. There was not so much as a promising divot in the earth. At a certain point I stopped meandering and just stood there amidst all that flat, indifferent nothing, wishing a sinkhole would open beneath my feet so I could be done with the whole thing already.
It was as I stood there feeling sorry for myself that I considered the buildings in the distance. They were clustered together at the northern end of the property, half-swallowed by the tree line. There were three of them: two large, slatted wooden structures, and a smaller building set a little apart from the others. I thought about the man with the rebar, his face framed in the warm glow of a chandelier, and it occurred to me that I had spent days scrutinizing every inch of my town's floor without giving much thought to its buildings. I started walking north.
The two larger structures were tobacco curing barns. Both were padlocked at their main doors, and a brief inspection confirmed they were sealed well enough that getting inside without tools would've been impossible. The smaller building was a different story. Its main entrance was also padlocked. But on the south-facing wall, there was a window (or what had once been one) now covered by a sheet of plywood that had warped badly along its lower edge, pulling away from the frame and leaving a small gap at the bottom. I crouched down and shone my phone flashlight inside. Concrete floor. A few collapsed wooden shelves. The dense, sweet smell of rot and old timber. I took off my pack, fed it through the gap, and then went in face-first the way I'd gone into a hundred tight cave passages before. The plywood scraped against my back and I collected what felt like a decade's worth of grime in the process, but I was through in seconds.
The building was dark inside, the only light coming from the gap I'd just crawled through and a few thin blades of late afternoon sun slicing through gaps in the siding. It was a stripping room—the place where the cured tobacco leaves would have been sorted and prepared, back when anyone was still doing that. The shelves along the walls had mostly given up. In the far corner, beneath a collapsed worktable, was a trapdoor, its recessed iron pull handle had gone the color of old blood. I dragged the worktable aside, got my fingers under the handle, and hauled. The door resisted for a moment, then came up with a sound like a long exhale.
Wooden steps led down into a root cellar. The smell that came up was cool and mineral and familiar. Jacob says I'm crazy for this but I've climbed through all sorts of caves across the South and I maintain that they've all got their own unique smell, even the ones that share the same climate and rock composition. The waft that hit me from that cellar felt distinctly like Needle. It was comforting somehow, like I was being greeted by an old friend.
The cellar was low-ceilinged and roughly square-shaped, its walls fieldstone and mortar, and it was completely empty except for a few broken mason jars and a rusted metal shelf bracket hanging from a single remaining screw. My flashlight found the south wall, and then it found what was wrong with the south wall. Someone had removed a section of the fieldstone, leaving an opening roughly oval in shape, maybe six feet tall and four feet wide. Beyond it was a passage, angling downward into the earth at a slight decline. This was clearly not something that had been made by time alone.
Gazing into that abyss from the top of the stairs, I found my mind drifting to the letter, and more specifically, the fourth line. Tzäni river. Most caves in this part of the country were made by water—millennia of it, threading through hairline cracks in the limestone until the rock dissolved and the dark opened up. I thought about the corpse in First Date, about how it had been suspended by the rocks. How awful that must've been, to die in a place that used to be a river. At least water moves. At least it would've carried him somewhere. Would my dead man have preferred to drown than to die alone amidst all that perfect stillness?
Would you?
I don't know how long I was crouched there at the top of those stairs. Long enough that when that skin-crawling certainty of being watched began to claw its way up my spine again, the sun had already started to set outside. I turned around.
There was nobody behind me, but I swept my phone flashlight into every corner anyway. I was alone in a derelict stripping room on an abandoned tobacco farm and I was frightening myself like a child. Not wanting to remain there after dark, I stood, carefully pulled the trapdoor shut, and headed home.
I'm certain that I've found the entrance I've been looking for. This means that whatever comes next needs to be approached with considerably more care than anything I've done so far. No solo runs. I'll go in with a group, and I'll go in armed. And perhaps, before I do either of those things, I'll send "Tsövel" my best attempt at a sketch of the Needle Caves system as I know it. If this new passage connects to wherever he is, he might know something about it that I don't.
I went home. I ate dinner with my family and did a reasonable impression of a person who hadn't spent the afternoon crouched over a hole in the earth. I brushed my teeth and got into bed and stared at the ceiling.
It wasn't until I was nearly under that the thought surfaced, quiet and awful, and wouldn't go back down. In the cellar, I had turned around to look behind me. It hadn't once occurred to me to wonder what was standing in front of me, just beyond the reach of my light.