Once in a while.
I look up to the sky.
And see how high you fly.
And say goodbye again without making you cry.
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I've known about the addiction, but chose to say nothing.
And I was wrong, I had to do something.
Should've saved you, but I still know one thing.
That either way, to get your drugs back you'd do anything.
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Your blood had a limit, and you've gone way beyond it.
Your kidney failed, and nothing could've reversed it.
All I'm capable of doing is crying on your shoulder whilst it took effect.
It's not like a service that you could decline or reject.
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I woudn't wish for you being wiser, that would be for me to ask.
Hoped to be early, but unfortunately arrived last.
I take the blame for the murder.
And you would never my dear be a burden.
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I wish I was home sooner and stopped effects taking its place.
I wish I was faster, but your pulse I couldn't beat or race.
I'd never get tired of imagining our chase.
And I would always laugh at your eyebrow raise.
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And what's striking is I found your body warm.
Yet unhealthy and torn inside from the harm.
I knew your heart gave in after checking your arm.
I wish the house had an option to help or perhaps an alarm.
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Guess you were a star, and without you I'm going cold.
And to the simplest things I get mad and fold.
Yet I kept our house, the memories couldn't be sold.
And I wouldn't forget you, no matter how many move on's I'm told.
.I (will) (always) love(d) you.