I ruined mine and my gfs lives financially and she has no idea
21 m. You can guess it gambling addiction. I have more bad habits. Especially with money I drink, smoke weed, indulge in fast food daily. However I don't work.
When me and my gf firsr started dating things where fine. I worked we loved each other. I lost my job early on and struggled with work to my own fault. I was lazy, I got comfy and started being manipulative to get her to pay for the things she needed and wanted to do. This went on until we both had a year long unemployment stretch living off my family. I started using her car for doordash. Being lazy I didn't maintain the car. After lying to her about paying insuremce and registration fees eventually It was impounded.
Here's worst, recently I've convinced her that her bank was taking money out(of course it was me) and told her she can feel safe with me holding onto it. I've spent every dollar and dime on gambling, booze and bullshit. I lost our car and now im lying saying we'll get it back.
I think im just gonna sell what I have soon get what money j can and leave it to her. I dont deserve her, I dont deserve to live. I can't see a future where I can be with her still and fix my actions. I go day by day lying to everyone and I've done nothing to fix anything about me. I dont know what other options are left.