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I believe in God. Not the God of the Bible because that God will drive you crazy if you let it, not because it teaches things that are necessarily inherently bad but just lies that keep you in a circular way of thinking that never actually lets you think for yourself. I have bipolar and a god complex that has only been controlled by my belief in God because no matter how manic I go or as close to God I may feel like I'm becoming I have something, God, that pulls me back and humbles me so I don't commit the ultimate blasphemy in my mind and think I'm God. My beliefs are definitely different than the Christian beliefs that I was raised with though because my mental health has sent me to seek God on so many levels that I lost faith in Jesus one time because I saw Jesus reflected in the mirror and on the faces of his followers and in that instant Jesus fell away and there was only ever God and in my mind a God nobody knows unlike what religion tries to tell people because if people believed what I do the churches would lose their power and authority on God which is something that I don't think anyone should ever have because it's very dangerous when anyone puts words in God's mouth.

Adam and Eve didn't eat fruit of knowledge at all. Humanity came out of the wilderness and as it created language and began to explore itself then it was initially faced with things that it could understand differently than just the instincts that nature gave humanity to survive. Humans began to rationalize that things were good and bad not because they were intrinsically good or evil but because of the way they felt about it. You don't want someone else to think killing is ok, not because you care about them hunting for dinner right? You don't want them to feel free to kill or hurt you or others you care about. People don't ever care about whether or not it's ok to kill when it's someone or something that imposes danger to them either. So war and conquest were historically ok as well. So why would God give humanity or anyone commandments that say thou shall not kill when if you just want to survive you have to kill just to eat be it plants or animals or mushrooms or anything else you can find for nutrition. If it was against God to kill we would all have to choose to starve or listen to God so we make rules of thought that circumvent the laws of God like well don't kill people unless they're bad or don't kill animals just for fun or whatever you have to tell yourself to be able to get around the truth that if God actually commanded that you shall not kill we would all be damned for eternity from the very beginning unless the whole world starved itself just to please God which is incredibly problematic for our species survival. In truth everything in religion is made up by man trying to make the things that are important to them and their beliefs ordained by God to take away the ability to argue with them and question why. The only answer they then had to give you to the question of why was that God said so and how dare anyone question God unless you're evil and then they would be justified in killing you for disobeying the laws of God that they themselves had made and perpetuated throughout history to maintain control over people who were too naive and thirsty for knowledge that they accepted a God that man made for them instead of seeking the truth for themselves.

God's name has never been spoken. If I were to speak it's name it would be silence upon my lips and yet we say God because we have nothing better to define the undefinable by. God is not found in a book the words imprisoned a version of God upon the pages that was believed by the men who were writing it. The wisest man in the world will tell you it's less about what you know than the knowledge of the things you don't know. I don't think anyone knows God and no man truly can.

How do you describe infinity with things that are not infinite themselves? It's a fragment of the whole that just represents the whole but you don't replace infinity with just the sign of infinity do you? No it represents so much more, something that cannot be perceived in the most brilliant of minds. There are multiple versions of infinity as well things that people can agree or disagree about depending on their perspective. Are there more or less infinite positive numbers than negative numbers? What about more even or odd numbers out to infinity? How much bigger or smaller is the infinite prime numbers all the way to the end that never comes. The Bible and all religious texts are but the symbol of infinity and yet only show just a few numbers on the pages as far as the people could count back then because they couldn't even conceive of infinity let alone the infinite infinities of eternity that would actually be the whole of everything we could ever conceive of wrapped up in a grain of sand that the unnamed God whose name is silence upon my lips walks upon in an infinite beach and endless sea that are nothing more than the imaginings of my mind and it's limits.

The God who has many names and none at the same time could be anything we can imagine and be none of them at the same time. It is only through first letting go of the lies that tell you that you know anything, that you can ever understand the things you'll never know. There's wisdom in the knowledge of the things you cannot know. We have told ourselves lies for whatever reason throughout history maybe as a desire to connect with the highest or to try and become it I have no idea.

All I can say is that I know we know nothing and you know the same truth too. We can tell ourselves things are true and actually trick ourselves into believing them because deep down we desperately need them to be true. Especially to give us hope in the abyss of darkness that is just a bunch of stars, planets, asteroids and debris being devoured by giant black holes virtual drains across all of space and time. It's scary to look out into the universe and wonder if we're the only ones. We call out into the abyss hoping for just a tiny chance of life beyond our oasis in the heavens. It can be terrifying to wonder why would a God that is supposed to love us allowing such suffering and pain. It's not because of a capricious God but of a different kind of God.

I don't have any reason for you to believe in the God I believe in other than the three ultimate blessings that exist in the universe.

Blessing One: Life in all it's complexity and ability to survive in extreme conditions and survive against all odds in a hostile universe.

Blessing Two: Death, the ultimate mercy of a hands off God ensuring that all things are made new and that all suffering will eventually end.

Blessing Three: The infinite nature of the universe and the speed of light boundary that keeps all of existence separated so one part of the universe can only impact a certain area ever no matter how fast they travel because the universe is expanding faster than the speed of light and there are permanent boundaries that no matter what we do we cannot ever reach. This means that no one good or evil can ever control the entire universe and everything is possible because the will of one cannot ever be in control of everything in the universe no matter how much time passes.

I believe in God but a God you can't ever reach in this world. If your God looks like you do you haven't looked far enough. If your God looks like little green aliens you still haven't looked far enough. Don't let anyone not even me tell you who your God is. Religion gives you a prepackaged version of God and people stop looking for God thinking they have already found God because a book tells you to believe this way. God is the highest and only by constantly seeking God can you ever have a chance of finding it. I don't think you can ever reach God and instead curtains get pulled back replaced by wisdom and enlightenment and another curtain leading you forward towards a God that always keeps you seeking. Only by seeking the highest can you ever elevate your perception of reality and grow towards a better understanding of God and the universe and our special little place in the grand scheme of things here on this hurtling rock of ice and water that just happens to be chasing a star speeding through space with no guide other than the pull of gravity that propels the universe to dance it's glorious ballet.

The Three Ultimate Blessings Of God