I've (F44) had Afib and SVT for the past 6 years. Recently I logged signs of Bradycardia.
I've gotten used to seeing my chest vibrating while sitting still. Or feeling my heartbeat in my ears walking up and down stairs. I knew to slow down at the gym if I felt really weak or got winded after running one length of the basketball court.
Yesterday I had my first dose of Metoprolol. ONE DOSE. Within hours I felt like tapping on my chest to see if my heart was still there. I woke up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom and my chest didn't vibrate when I got back in bed. I laid there awake for hours, kind of missing that old trusty heartbeat, the one that was very wacky but helped me feel alive. I started to wonder if this medicine was too good to be true. Is my heart being restricted from it's natural state? How can something that creates this drastic of a change not be doing something else weird to me?
I went to the gym this morning and grinned when my heart rate registered 138 (not one 190) during an intense bike ride. I couldn't stop smiling thinking about running up and down the basketball court, or beating my friends at CrossNet (hah).
I drank a cup of coffee. My heart remained quiet and clam. I called my mom and cried. I'm happy because I feel kind of normal, but I also kind of miss that old wacky beat that told me I was alive. And I'm also kind of scared of side effects. I only took half of my pill this morning...and then at the slightest sign of a palpitation I took the other half.
Anyone else have these mixed feelings when their old wacky ticker got right?