what should I do? (16F 15M)
basically, I talk a lot to this guy online and weve been friends for just over a year now. we grew super close in a short amount of time and i believe we still are gettint closer but recently my hearts been feeling really heavy. i always have these lingering thoughts that im bothering him or hes growing tired of me and our friendship, especially when his tone seems slightly off or hes not talking to me as much as he usually does. actually, maybe somewhere near the middle of last year, i had almost cut him off because he started becoming dry and we stopped talking often, if not completely which made me really sad. he never specified why we stopped talking but i speculated it was because he had gotten a gf but never said anything about it which really bothered me because i thought we had "something", only for him to find someone else and replace what we had. anyways after explaining how i felt, he ended up apologising and we started talking again. dont get me wrong, hes super sweet and i love his company but idk i just get anxious whenever we arent together because it feels like he might meet another girl and drop me for her. i know this may just be a personal issue within me and i try to remind myself that its just my thoughts messing with my head and i dont want to explain how i feel to him because we arent even dating, so how could i expect someone whos not my bf to change for me. (not to mention im older than him 🥲) so i just feel embarrassed. i also dont want to drop him again because i really do like him and ive realised that i dont want to lose him or what we have.