Feeling isolated…
I currently live in a bachelors suite apartment with my cat. I love her with my whole heart and soul, and she trots after me everywhere I walk. That said, whenever I leave her alone, I feel so so guilty. But whenever I’m home alone with her, especially for extended periods of time, I tend to get very anxious.
I’ve been living alone for about 3 years now, but it hasn’t been until this recent apartment, probably due to its size, that it’s been really making me anxious.
I struggle with an anxiety disorder, but the idea that I’m hiding myself away from the world and disconnecting from others stresses me out. But knowing that my cat could be alone when I’m all she has literally devastates me too.
I also struggle with binge drinking in specific, and am trying to get better at not letting that enter my mind during the weekends, but when you live alone, it feels like it’s so so hard to course correct.
I don’t know why I’m posting this here, and I don’t know what I’m expecting to get, I think as I sit here anxiously getting ready for work I’m just looking to get this off my chest. It already helps me feel better to talk to people that hopefully get it.