I (21F) started a new job a few months ago. My coworker/supervisor (59F) is beyond mean, rude and all the possible bad things you can imagine. After like 5-6 months, she actually started to treat me better, even like her daughter who is abroad and she loves a LOT.
I come from a very abusive household and was neglected a lot as a child. Only this very year have I started getting treatment for all my traumas and disorders. My mom warned me before starting the new job to not run my mouth trusting people, cuz anything I say could be used against me. But after some time I felt like I could genuinely trust her and she stopped being as mean. Last week a lot of things happened in the office and she was upset at me, I was definitely extremely angry at her and my boss to the point of wanting to quit. But this company also works with the company my mom works for, she’s in contact with my mom. I started to fear that she could use all the things I’ve told her that my mom has done to me or about my mom against me.
I also have this issue with my mom where she treats me horrible most of the time and suddenly is nice to me and I feel like extremely guilty of ever complaining about her when she treats me nice.
So today was one of those days where she was treating me nice, helping me and even saying that she would defend me against my supervisor by giving her them also a horrible time with work related stuff and now I feel an extreme guilt of being a bad daughter and extreme fear of what my coworker could ever say.
TLDR: I trusted my coworker with personal details of my mom and my neglectful upbringing. Now I fear she could tell my mom and feel like a horrible daughter.