Throwaway account because I might just be whining and I feel embarrassed about feeling this way, but I guess i just needed to rant. I'm not sure if this is even allowed on here, so please feel free to tell me so, I don't want to overstep.
So I'm in art college for my BFA, in my Junior year and I feel like I'm not performing well to standards. my friends constantly reassure me that I'm perfectly fine and on the road to success, but with the way the job market and the sheer competitive nature of art jobs, I feel like I'd never meet the cut. I have a perfectly fine GPA: 3.2, and I'm fairly decent in all of my classes, given burnout and depression alike. I see everyone around me getting internships or even full time jobs, and I'm sitting here barely getting my assignments done on time.
I'm taking commissions on the side, working part-time, and I have an internship lined up for the summer, but I'm not even sure that's what I'm going to LIKE like. I got in on the graces of my uncle, and it would be about book cover designs. I'm more of a character artist, though I'm more than greatful and happy for the experience in the industry, even if it will be an unpaid internship. I'll be working full time in the summer to make up for not being paid in that.
I'm also finishing a children's book and an 80 page chapter 1 for my senior thesis of a graphic novel.
maybe I'm doing just enough, and I shouldn't be so hard on myself, as everyone goes at their own pace in this industry, and it is mainly just luck and connections. But any ideas on what I should do now? I get making a website, taking more commissions, getting my art out there. But has anyone gone through the same issues and found an internship or job in a certain industry to get you out of the rut? As in, where should I look for more opportunities?