Instead of bipolar 2 I could be schizoaffective and it's driving me crazy
So, after not being in therapy and out of meds for 3/4 years, I felt the need to go back to a therapist, who, after 10 months sent me to a paychiatrist (I refused for some time but eventually submitted).
I saw the psychiatrist two days ago and wants me to start abilify. They left me plenty of choice about what to do (long story) so I haven't bought it yet, but they strongly suspect it could be "more" than bipolar 2 because of other symptoms and thoughts, hence schizoaffective.
I am so fucking scared that in the future they will confirm this, it's been tough until now already, and I am 25. And just the thought of it makes me shit my pants from fear honestly. I've been trying to do some research and based on the questions they had and the responses I gave there could be a chance. This feels like a nightmare.
Please tell me everything will be okay, I could really use some support, I feel like I'm going out of my mind. And I think I'll start abilify even though I heard some bad things about it but I really don't want to feel like this anymore.