First ever VA exam
I guess it’s a silly post, but I don’t really know where else to vent. This has probably been asked a million times, but I’m only looking for some support.
My VA exam is scheduled for tomorrow after a pretty long wait. I am outright terrified by what to expect. After reading thousands of posts about horrible C&P exams, I can’t get my thoughts together. My medical journey has been a nightmare, and it’s not over yet. I am looking at more surgeries in the nearest future and probably more unknown results.
Long story short, I am not the most eloquent person when it comes to anything medical. I wholeheartedly despise any kind of medical setting, and I hate going to doctors, hospitals or anything of that sort. I fully expect this exam to be an interrogation. Knowing myself, I’m worried that I would just put my guard up, shut down and hurt my chances of a decent exam by this even more. I don’t know what to say, how to act or what to do. If my exam goes tits up, I don’t feel like I have any kind of time or desire left in me to fight legal battles with the VA for the next 20 years. I would take getting shot at over going to this exam.
Again, I know this is silly, but I don’t have anyone to talk to about how it feels. I don’t feel like sharing my journey with anyone IRL, especially considering recent climate of trying to make veterans seem like freeloaders that are looking for money. I already feel like a complete POS for trying to ask for money due to my medical issues. Feels like people live with much worse and just roll with it. If I could get some words of encouragement or at least some insight of how to handle yourself - I would be more than thankful.