I will win this war whatever it takes and no matter how long it takes
I've been in this loop for years and years; I keep trying and failing or trying and winning and then get bored or miss the caffeine and go back to it, but this time I feel it, like I really feel it, that this time, God willing, I will never go back. I've never experienced life after the withdrawals; I don't know what life feels like without being decaffeinated, and this time I will know it. nothing in life should pressure me to the point where I must drink and nothing should seduce me to the point where I give in to the urges fully knowing I will regret it before tomorrow. I'm done with this drug and I'm ready for all its punches. I'm ready for the headaches and the boredom and the lethargy; just let me feel it one more time before this war is over and I win. wish me luck, guys, and thank you in advance for the positive comments.