I won't get into the full story of what happened or I'd be typing all night but the tl;dr is that I was BEST friends with this girl for 10 years, like, we were sisters, closer than any of my family or all my other friends combined kinda close until one day she decided she hated me because.... I was too autistic.
Yeah.. she said that. I genuinely wondered if she'd had a head injury or something the personality switch up was so bad but... Nope. All her.
Anyway, she stopped being the nicest person ever and started being cruel to me a bit over a year ago and it took me another few months to get the message and stop putting the effort into our friendship and honestly it's taken until recently to gain some sort of peace over the situation.
I barely see her anymore, I have a new friend group, it's going good, I've moved on.
But just when I think she's out of my life and I can relax I find out she's coming to my uni next term. FUCK.
I just want to be FREE.
The thing is, she'll do this thing where she'll show me a hint of the nice version of her and I'll actually like an idiot baby being shown a bucket of sugar till she turns around and hurts me again. And again and again and again and I just don't know how to not be friends with her because I want to be SO BADLY but I CAN'T and she KNOWS that and uses it against me!!
It's a small course so I won't be able to avoid her at uni and I just know she's gonna show me that fucking bucket of sugar like she always does and then tell everyone all my embarrassing secrets like she always does but I keep telling them to her because I don't even know why!?? I want her to love me again??? I want my best friend back?????
I need advice on this so bad, I don't know what I'm going to do. FUCK.
I'm so bad at not being nice to people so I don't want to be mean to her or anything I just want... Distance.