Made my decision
Thanks to all who replied to my previous post in this group. After several days of deep consideration I plan to retire early from federal service.
It's sad to go out like this - hating going to a job that I used to love, dreading every Monday and counting the hours until Friday. There's no way I can do this to myself and my family for 2 more years until I'm eligible for a full unreduced retirement.
Tonight I'll go home, talk through it with my wife one more time, select my retirement date, and then submit the request tomorrow morning.